MinervaX

My new club I'm working on.

The lie is 2.
 
1. I was once a born again christian
2. I have a published book.
3. I have at least one piercing.

So.... today I did something I should have done a long time ago. I told someone a truth about that I should have told them about 2 years ago. In doing so, I hurt them at a time they don't deserve to be hurt.
 
I'm doing this for Akali. She hasn't asked me to, but... I just want to show her how much she means to me and how sorry I am.
 
So... this will be a little confession. I've seen how these things went down in the past and I'm very scared, but....
 
 
When I first started playing (as JanaX) I did not tell people one thing about me, my rl gender, which is male. Later, my conscience troubled me and after I came back as Epithany I set myself certain ethical rules. I stopped playing as randomly with others, I stopped playing altogether with those who took a male character, and every single one of the people I've been involved with emotionally I've told. All ex's of mine know this.
 
But that leaves those I knew before coming back as Epi. Some of my closest friends and the people I care the most about. Did I tell them? No... I was scared, it built up and built up and became harder and harder to say. These are the people I care the most about, that have the most significance to me. To make matters worse, I allowed something to happen and didn't tell her then, either.
 
Today.... the guilt became too much and I told her. Now I think she hates me and worse... I've hurt someone I care about very much. I will hurt others by making this confession and I'm so sorry, but you deserve to hear the truth about me.
 
Since Lilly left I've been numb, but the small amount of feeling I had left was reserved for my closest friends and for the person I'm doing this for. I can't imagine a favourable reception, but I don't have anything to lose at this point.
 
 
To Akali.. what I said to you, I meant. You are one of the most special and beautiful people I know. You deserve better. In all other respects, I was me and the words I said to you I meant sincerely and without expectation or agenda, and I hope that because of this you will one day forgive me.
 
To others.... if you are close to someone, and you have something to tell them, you should. Now. Don't wait 2 years and hurt someone you care about deeply.

The lie is 2.
 
1. I was once a born again christian
2. I have a published book.
3. I have at least one piercing.

Ohhh.... BDSM! Is it BDSM related?
 
Although... sounds like they are thinking of clothing designers, I bet or something like this.

For those who has problems with last update. Actually there was enough information on the forum regarding previous updates, I just compiled the advises from different people. After I completed the undermentioned routine I was able to get fully functional and updated game. Hope this also can help other people.
 
0) If your game doesn't want to install update (Patcher.exe is missing, for example) - most probably you will need to fully reinstall the game. Alas.
1) Download latest game client (for now this is 371) from here: http://3dxchat.com/download.php
2) If you have any world editor layouts you created IN the game folder - copy them somewhere safe, since uninstaller will delete 3DXChat folder completely (Right, developers, who needs them anyway, we can spend more hours trying to recreate what we've done).
3) Uninstall previous version using standard Windows tools (Control Panel -> Programs and Components -> 3DXChat Client -> Kill it with fire Uninstall)
4) Run regedit and search for entry: SexGameDevil (if you are not sure what's regedit and how to use - google it and be careful, since smashing your head against the keyboard and randomly deleting registry entries will result in system collapse)
5) Right click on the SexGameDevil registry entry and select "Delete".
6) Turn OFF all screens of your antivirus/firewall (refer to your antivirus manual to understand how to do that).
7) Open saved installation client and run it as administrator (Right click on installation file and select "Run as Administrator"). There is no difference in following installation routine.
8) You may add game folder to your antivirus/firewall exceptions list (yet again, refer to your antivirus manual to understand how to do that)
9) Open game folder and run 3DXChat.exe as administrator (just like with previous case - right click on 3DXChat.exe file and select "Run as Administrator")
10) Wait for the new update to be completed.
11) Do not forget to turn your antivirus/firewall on after.
12) Log in and do whatever you do in game (no advises here though).
 
P.S. Yes, your custom designed deluxe color palette will be gone. I heard that there is possibility to save old one and import it through the registry, but I will not give here any additional advises.
P.P.S. Thanks, developers, I missed happy hour in my favorite beauty store while I was writing this wall of text.

Yes it is. 3DXChat is a sex game. And we are now considering the possibility of creating something that will produce another revolution in the game!    

whats new: (to my current knowledge)

 

home editor:

- custom light settings for all daytimes, nights are dark again

- custom light source to build your own lamps

- vehicles: 

6 penis-size compensating sportcars (dodge challenger, Ford GT, a Lambo, a McLaren, and another one which surely has a fancy name but I don't know it)

a chopper

an airplane (beech kingair)

a motorboat

- 4 new patterns: tiles and shingles

- 3 stone floors in Bricks&Blocks

- Nature: 2 new rock and Ice surfaces

- Metals: rust, bronze, corrugated iron

 

clothing:

- a coat for the girls, nothing new for the boys

Honestly, I'd just be happy if they made point lights work again in user rooms.... and a right angled tri-angle based piece.... and fixes... and.... more poses.... and... everything.

Mine and Lilly's castle Work in Progress.... obviously textures to be added and tons of stuffs.... but.... it's coming on....
 

 

Honestly, I'd just be happy if they made point lights work again in user rooms.... and a right angled tri-angle based piece.... and fixes... and.... more poses.... and... everything.

xDoe, I have to admit and be honest though, I'm surprised since yesterday after this confession, you made quite sense to me that you are a female and I had no doubts nor cared, you were too friendly, you made quite sense as the character you been playing, and that what mattered the most.
 
But seriously, as I said before I don't care what people have between their thighs, I'm a friend with anyone who would like me or accept me as a friend as who I am, I still like you as a friend and I will always appreciate the friendship we have and I would love to still be friends as a new person (David) or as xDoe, make sure to hit me up when you decide to come back.
 
You don't have to apologize or feel sorry at all, I had many friends who admit or confess later that they are males playing females, it's no big deal and happens quite often in 3DXChat community, what matters most is how friendly and nice these people were, and how I truly loved them as friends, I have more male friends than females even as a homo girl anyways.
 
So yeah I still have that tealish knit cap!   

You dont owe the community as a whole an apology. if it makes you feel better  than nothing wrong with it. It takes courage to do what you did when you didn't have to. Be true to yourself, do what you think is right and at the end of the day if someone stops being your friend, they were never a friend to begin with. 

Hey David
 
I don't know you and have never met you, but wanted to add my tuppenceworth.
 
You've achieved the hardest thing, and that is writing that first statement in this thread. That takes real guts and I could feel how difficult it was in the way that you wrote it. But you did it. Don't let anyone knock you back, because you've already come a long way in managing to write that and to open up. So, pat yourself on the back for starters
 
I don't have any personal experience of depression or social anxiety, but I've met enough people in 3dx to know that you're not alone, far from it. Many many people turn to the game for this reason. So while you may sometimes feel alone, you're not. There are plenty others who know how you feel.
 
You've tried some real life therapies and that is all good, it shows a real willingness to want to beat it and make your life better. But I think you probably have to select carefully - homeopathy is, imo, some weird pseudo-scientific nonsense that is about as reliable as magic I have heard that cognitive behaviour therapy is often positive; is this something you have tried?
 
As for playing a female avi in 3dx... please don't punish yourself for this. Many many people do the same, and many don't have the courage or the honesty to tell who they really are. You have proven you have both. If people judge you negatively for that, I'm sorry but that says more about them than it does about you. But i think the community is generally supportive and I hope your friends will be on your side.
 
Ultimately, remember that you are a good person, with the best intentions, and a determination to better yourself. And that's a great starting point. Look forward now, not back. You can't undo the past, but the best thing about the future is that you haven't created it yet.

Forgive you for what? I like talking to the person typing, and barely pay attention to the rest of the screen. Be comfortable, be kind, and allow people to love your heart.
 
btw, I think you're really nice and funny
 
Take a breath and be gentle with your own heart, Doe. ♡

Your not the first and most certainly won't be the last. We have had countless threads on the should you or shouldn't you be honest about your rl gender so I wont go there. Personally as a male playing a female I do tell people if I see myself getting close to them basically to put my mind at ease.
A lot don't care, they are focused on fucking the pixels in front of them, not worrying about what the person looks like, or the rl gender of the person behind the monitor.
Anyone that's been here a while knows of the high percentage of males that play this game, compared to females and "real' transgenders, so I have kinda accepted that while I am jerking my cock with some random, most likely that person is doing the same.

You may find people here  are more forgiving than you think Doe, my best friend in the game played a female when i met her  still does  though most know him as SageStoner.  Personally I don't care what or who you are behind the monitor,  be a good person and good people will see that in you.  don't give up on yourself or your friends ... they may just surprise you.  keep your head up 
 
Don't know you but if you need a shoulder   look me up in game  NicoleMcC
 
 

WE love you, MinX. As Cat said - nothing will change that.
We know you and love you. Your soul and heart.

So.... today I did something I should have done a long time ago. I told someone a truth about that I should have told them about 2 years ago. In doing so, I hurt them at a time they don't deserve to be hurt.
 
I'm doing this for Akali. She hasn't asked me to, but... I just want to show her how much she means to me and how sorry I am.
 
So... this will be a little confession. I've seen how these things went down in the past and I'm very scared, but....
 
 
When I first started playing (as JanaX) I did not tell people one thing about me, my rl gender, which is male. Later, my conscience troubled me and after I came back as Epithany I set myself certain ethical rules. I stopped playing as randomly with others, I stopped playing altogether with those who took a male character, and every single one of the people I've been involved with emotionally I've told. All ex's of mine know this.
 
But that leaves those I knew before coming back as Epi. Some of my closest friends and the people I care the most about. Did I tell them? No... I was scared, it built up and built up and became harder and harder to say. These are the people I care the most about, that have the most significance to me. To make matters worse, I allowed something to happen and didn't tell her then, either.
 
Today.... the guilt became too much and I told her. Now I think she hates me and worse... I've hurt someone I care about very much. I will hurt others by making this confession and I'm so sorry, but you deserve to hear the truth about me.
 
Since Lilly left I've been numb, but the small amount of feeling I had left was reserved for my closest friends and for the person I'm doing this for. I can't imagine a favourable reception, but I don't have anything to lose at this point.
 
 
To Akali.. what I said to you, I meant. You are one of the most special and beautiful people I know. You deserve better. In all other respects, I was me and the words I said to you I meant sincerely and without expectation or agenda, and I hope that because of this you will one day forgive me.
 
To others.... if you are close to someone, and you have something to tell them, you should. Now. Don't wait 2 years and hurt someone you care about deeply.

So.... today I did something I should have done a long time ago. I told someone a truth about that I should have told them about 2 years ago. In doing so, I hurt them at a time they don't deserve to be hurt.
 
I'm doing this for Akali. She hasn't asked me to, but... I just want to show her how much she means to me and how sorry I am.
 
So... this will be a little confession. I've seen how these things went down in the past and I'm very scared, but....
 
 
When I first started playing (as JanaX) I did not tell people one thing about me, my rl gender, which is male. Later, my conscience troubled me and after I came back as Epithany I set myself certain ethical rules. I stopped playing as randomly with others, I stopped playing altogether with those who took a male character, and every single one of the people I've been involved with emotionally I've told. All ex's of mine know this.
 
But that leaves those I knew before coming back as Epi. Some of my closest friends and the people I care the most about. Did I tell them? No... I was scared, it built up and built up and became harder and harder to say. These are the people I care the most about, that have the most significance to me. To make matters worse, I allowed something to happen and didn't tell her then, either.
 
Today.... the guilt became too much and I told her. Now I think she hates me and worse... I've hurt someone I care about very much. I will hurt others by making this confession and I'm so sorry, but you deserve to hear the truth about me.
 
Since Lilly left I've been numb, but the small amount of feeling I had left was reserved for my closest friends and for the person I'm doing this for. I can't imagine a favourable reception, but I don't have anything to lose at this point.
 
 
To Akali.. what I said to you, I meant. You are one of the most special and beautiful people I know. You deserve better. In all other respects, I was me and the words I said to you I meant sincerely and without expectation or agenda, and I hope that because of this you will one day forgive me.
 
To others.... if you are close to someone, and you have something to tell them, you should. Now. Don't wait 2 years and hurt someone you care about deeply.

So.... today I did something I should have done a long time ago. I told someone a truth about that I should have told them about 2 years ago. In doing so, I hurt them at a time they don't deserve to be hurt.
 
I'm doing this for Akali. She hasn't asked me to, but... I just want to show her how much she means to me and how sorry I am.
 
So... this will be a little confession. I've seen how these things went down in the past and I'm very scared, but....
 
 
When I first started playing (as JanaX) I did not tell people one thing about me, my rl gender, which is male. Later, my conscience troubled me and after I came back as Epithany I set myself certain ethical rules. I stopped playing as randomly with others, I stopped playing altogether with those who took a male character, and every single one of the people I've been involved with emotionally I've told. All ex's of mine know this.
 
But that leaves those I knew before coming back as Epi. Some of my closest friends and the people I care the most about. Did I tell them? No... I was scared, it built up and built up and became harder and harder to say. These are the people I care the most about, that have the most significance to me. To make matters worse, I allowed something to happen and didn't tell her then, either.
 
Today.... the guilt became too much and I told her. Now I think she hates me and worse... I've hurt someone I care about very much. I will hurt others by making this confession and I'm so sorry, but you deserve to hear the truth about me.
 
Since Lilly left I've been numb, but the small amount of feeling I had left was reserved for my closest friends and for the person I'm doing this for. I can't imagine a favourable reception, but I don't have anything to lose at this point.
 
 
To Akali.. what I said to you, I meant. You are one of the most special and beautiful people I know. You deserve better. In all other respects, I was me and the words I said to you I meant sincerely and without expectation or agenda, and I hope that because of this you will one day forgive me.
 
To others.... if you are close to someone, and you have something to tell them, you should. Now. Don't wait 2 years and hurt someone you care about deeply.

So.... today I did something I should have done a long time ago. I told someone a truth about that I should have told them about 2 years ago. In doing so, I hurt them at a time they don't deserve to be hurt.
 
I'm doing this for Akali. She hasn't asked me to, but... I just want to show her how much she means to me and how sorry I am.
 
So... this will be a little confession. I've seen how these things went down in the past and I'm very scared, but....
 
 
When I first started playing (as JanaX) I did not tell people one thing about me, my rl gender, which is male. Later, my conscience troubled me and after I came back as Epithany I set myself certain ethical rules. I stopped playing as randomly with others, I stopped playing altogether with those who took a male character, and every single one of the people I've been involved with emotionally I've told. All ex's of mine know this.
 
But that leaves those I knew before coming back as Epi. Some of my closest friends and the people I care the most about. Did I tell them? No... I was scared, it built up and built up and became harder and harder to say. These are the people I care the most about, that have the most significance to me. To make matters worse, I allowed something to happen and didn't tell her then, either.
 
Today.... the guilt became too much and I told her. Now I think she hates me and worse... I've hurt someone I care about very much. I will hurt others by making this confession and I'm so sorry, but you deserve to hear the truth about me.
 
Since Lilly left I've been numb, but the small amount of feeling I had left was reserved for my closest friends and for the person I'm doing this for. I can't imagine a favourable reception, but I don't have anything to lose at this point.
 
 
To Akali.. what I said to you, I meant. You are one of the most special and beautiful people I know. You deserve better. In all other respects, I was me and the words I said to you I meant sincerely and without expectation or agenda, and I hope that because of this you will one day forgive me.
 
To others.... if you are close to someone, and you have something to tell them, you should. Now. Don't wait 2 years and hurt someone you care about deeply.