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I WILL NO LONGER BE FREELY GIVING ROSES OUT. TOO MANY PEOPLE MADE IT A NEGATIVE THING. NO THEY WERE NOT "GIVEN OUT OF DESPERATION FOR ATTENTION", NO THEY WERE NOT GIVEN OUT BECAUSE "I EXPECTED SEX", THEY WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE A "MANDATORY " THING WHERE PEOPLE FELT I OWED THEM A ROSE, BUT ONCE GIVEN REFUSED TO TALK TO ME OR EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE IF I SAID HI (THAT IS NOT ASKING FOR ATTENTION, THAT IS EXPECTING COMMON DECENCY AND RESPECT.)
I DID IT FOR ONE REASON AND AS HARD AS THAT MAY BE TO BELIEVE THAT REASON IS THE TRUTH. ALL I WANTED WAS A SMILE AND FOR THE RECIPIENT TO FEEL SPECIAL AND TO SEE SOMEONE CARED. I FEEL BAD THAT PEOPLE CHOSE TO MAKE IT SUCH A NEGATIVE AND PUT ME IN SUCH AN ATTITUDE THAT I NO LONGER FEEL THEY WERE APPRECIATED FOR THE REASON I GAVE THEM, TO MANY IT BECAME A JOKE AND PERHAPS IT WAS MY FAULT.
ANYWAY, IT IS WHAT IT IS AND I APOLOGIZE TO THE PEOPLE THAT TRULY ENJOYED THEM AND LOOKED FORWARD TO GETTING THEM.
I'M JUST NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH THE DRAMA OF HAVING TO EXPLAIN WHAT I FELT WAS A NOBLE AND KIND GESTURE.- Show previous comments 3 more
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Yes, but easier and less embarrassing for those that ruined it if I just stop giving them out. I mean people would figure out after watching those certain people never getting roses. So, instead of causing more drama. I just figured I'd stop all together and therefore the drama llamas can't create more drama.
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See? Still a gentleman. Protecting those who insulted him. Don't you ever change my friend.
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When love says goodbye... and then comes back and the magic is still as beautiful as before... you have found a love that has withstood the cruelest of tests... time.
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- Adara, Vaughan_Rarius, ☙𝔼𝕩❧ and 2 others
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I don't know and not telling... lol
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Real love never dies my friend and nothing can come between you unless you allow it to. Be strong. Wishing you happiness always.
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Being who I am, I was planning to go to a Bernie Sanders rally in Cleveland tonight, BUT it was cancelled due to Coronavirus.
So instead..... let's rock while the world as we know ends...
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HEY FAUX PROFITS.... YOU GOING TO OPEN THE DOORS TO THE POOR WHO ARE SUFFERING NOW???? FUCK YOU, BET YOU HIDE IN PANIC ROOMS LOCKED AWAY.... BUT ASK YOURSELVES.... BEFORE YOU GO FUCKING HIDE LIKE THE DEMONIC FOLLOWING COWARDS YOU ARE....
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TODAY WOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY SPECIAL DAY FOR MY SON, HIS 25TH BIRTHDAY.
I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY DAY JEFFREY. THROUGH ALL THE UPS AND DOWNS AND SIDEWAYS' I HOPE YOU KNOW I ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I DID THE BEST I COULD WITH YOU, I WASN'T PERFECT BUT I TRIED.
THE NEXT GREATEST THING IN MY LIFE S THE FACT THAT OUR LAST CONVERSATION WAS RECORDED VIA MESSENGER AND I HAD TOLD YOU 2 THINGS THAT TO THIS DAY ARE STILL AS TRUE NOW. I AM PROUD OF YOU AND I LOVE YOU.
WHERE EVER YOUR SOUL MAY TRULY BE KNOW THOSE 2 THINGS STILL FILL MY HEART FOR YOU.
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- Vaughan_Rarius and SusanLouisa
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he and I together... our best picture together: People always said we looked alike, but I didn't see it.
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I see it. Same chin and jaw line. Wish I could see his eyes better! But two handsome men. So sorry for your loss my friend.
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- panCDCA and Vaughan_Rarius
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Thanks Susan, yes we had the same baby blue eyes lol/ Those eyes in the first pic were his maybe not that bright but that blue as are mine. Same long hair also lol
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Sounds like a plan I'll join you.
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A PHILIosophy of life
WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME I AM DIFFERENT, I AM COMPLIMENTED BECAUSE I DO NOT LIVE MY LIFE TO BE LIKE ANYONE ELSE.
I REFUSE TO COMPARE MYSELF TO ANYONE, BECAUSE I AM WHO I AM AND MY LIFE EXPERIENCES ARE UNIQUE TO ME.
I ACTUALLY FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN CONSTANT COMPETITION FOR RECOGNITION OF "BEING LIKE SOMEONE " OR "BELIEVING THE SAME THINGS", IT MUST BE TIRING AND DEPRESSING TO TRY TO KEEP UP AND BE SOMEONE YOU AREN'T AND FIGHTING FOR THEIR APPROVAL. TO ME, IT SMELLS OF SOMEONE WHO IS UNCOMFORTABLE IN THEIR OWN SKIN.
BE YOURSELF, THINK FOR YOURSELF (NOT ABOUT JUST YOURSELF OR YOUR APPROVAL), BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE. BECAUSE IF YOU CAN NOT BE PROUD OF YOURSELF OR WHO YOU ARE, THEN WHO CAN BE PROUD OF YOU?
TRULY, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF MY BEING "DIFFERENT" CAUSE YOU TO DISLIKE ME. THAT JUST TELLS ME THAT YOU FEAR SOMEONE WHO THINKS FOR THEMSELVES AND YOU FEEL THREATENED BECAUSE YOU CAN'T, SOMEWHERE YOU LOST THAT ABILITY.
SO, IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I SAY ABOUT SOMEONE, PERHAPS I HAVE MY REASONS. I WILL TELL YOU MY REASONS IF, YOU ASK, BUT I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO LIKE/DISLIKE THE PERSON BECAUSE I DO.
IT IS CALLED BEING AN INDIVIDUAL AND RECOGNIZING WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT. THE WORLD WOULD BE BORING IF WE WERE ALL THE SAME, THOUGHT THE SAME AND LOOKED THE SAME.
IN THE END, THE ONLY THING WE HAVE IS OURSELVES. MONEY COMES AND GOES, LOVERS FALL OUT OF LOVE, CHILDREN MOVE ON, FRIENDS AREN'T AROUND 24/7. JOBS, YOU ARE ONLY AS GOOD AS THE BOSS ALLOWS YOU TO BE AND ONE MINUTE YOU CAN BE ON TOP, THE NEXT YOU'RE HEAD IS ON THE CHOPPING BLOCK....
THE ONLY THING IN LIFE THAT IS 100% CONSISTENT IS THAT YOU ARE YOU AND IN BEING YOU, YOU NEED TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH WHO YOU ARE. ARE YOU?
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Acceptance is neither a cost nor responsibility of how you live your life. It comes naturally. People accept how I live my life or they don't... that is THEIR decision, I dgaf. If one worries about acceptance, then they are not choosing to be themselves.
Acceptance is based on mutual respect and honesty. IF I respect someone for who they are then rightfully they should respect me for who I am. IF they choose to judge me or not respect me for me being me, how can I respect them or how can they expect me too, as long as I am harming no one else, what are they losing by my being who I am.
If a friend of mine wants to believe they are from Mars and believes 100% in their mind, body and soul they are, then as long as they hurt no one and respect others, wtf business is it of mine.
My belief is especially in the USA, people worry MORE about everyone else and try to keep up with their friends and whomever, that they no longer truly know what they believe or who they are. I know friends who I went to school with and their parents are sick and dying or dead, are finding out their parents who lived as millionaires because their friends did are heavily in credit card debt and they (the kids) are responsible. So, these parents who lived well above their means trying to be like their neighbors and not who they were are hurting their kids because of the debts they leave.
Then there are the friends I went to school with whose parents, were proud of where they were, lived within their means, took on very little debt except a car every few years and a house they lived in for 40 years, leave their kids millionaires.
That is a prime example of living in your own skin and being happy with who you are and not chasing everyone else. People who are fake, tend to hurt the ones who truly love them, BUT their friends who are just as fake are right there until sadly, the differences show.
Anyway, life is life and however anyone wants to live theirs is no more my business than theirs is in how I choose to live mine. As long as no one is being hurt. And in my life's journeys, I have found that the way I choose to live, so long as I am ok with it and I stand up for what I believe in and keep my eyes and heart on the teachings of Jesus Christ, then I am successful and I can love myself and be happy in my own skin.
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You remind me of Michael Alig
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FUNNIEST THING I HAVE READ IN WEEKS, READ ALL THE WAY TO THE END.
Maine crime update
Lt. Tim Cotton, Bangor Police Department - Our officers were called to settle a dispute between a man and a woman on the east side of Bangor. It seems that the lady of the house had become somewhat frustrated by her partner’s lack of initiative with his day-to-day obligations.
While one officer stayed outside with the lady, another peacemaker entered the house to gain more insight into what was causing the rift.
Inside the house, our officer observed what appeared to be an Xbox controller flung a considerable distance from where gaming operations would typically be undertaken.
It was clear to our twenty-something silver-badged part-time gamer that someone made sure that the formerly ergonomically perfect device would no longer be easily connected through the magic of Bluetooth technology.
What had once been this sad man’s reliable gaming companion was now a disheveled and destitute device with missing analog sticks and a D-Pad that was damaged in a most dastardly manner. “Dang, this dame was downright dark,” the cop thought to himself, hoping that she could not hear his internal voice.
“But, why,” he said under his coffee-tainted breath.
The victim was ready to open up about how this all came to be. He explained that he had been gaming frequently, and, for some time, she had relayed to him that it was much too long. Our officer, afraid to ask the tough questions, only moved his eyebrows, upward, slightly.
The man continued that he had remained jobless for the last three years. During that time, he became adept at gaming full-time. Sure, the pay wasn’t great, but the benefits were excellent. He never had to leave the house.
Our officer felt that he needed a little more information, he waited. The sad man continued by explaining that the lady of the house had arrived home tonight with a head of steam that could not be stopped.
She disarmed him of his beloved controller and sent it into an orbit around the room. The damage was done, feelings were hurt. It was clear that she wanted him to stop playing with the Xbox. He told the officer that he took full responsibility for driving her to do the damage to his second love.
The officer walked outside to get a statement from the lady regarding the events of the evening. Sure, he was scared. He surely would not be telling her the amount of time that he personally spends gaming. There was no reason to take this event to DEFCON 7.
The woman said that they had been together for five years, and the man had been jobless, and gaming, for the last three. She admitted to launching the device against a wall, and she was sorry, but she had reached the end of her rope.
The officer returned to the house. The gamer told him he would leave until things cooled down. The only physical altercation that took place was between the woman and the controller; it could be replaced.
The officer moved his eyebrows upward, one more time. The sad man grasped immediately that the upward movement of the eyebrow should be translated into the following sentence—“Maybe you shouldn’t replace the controller, at least, right away.”
The officer offered both parties a warning to quiet down. The man looked at our officer and asked his advice on what to do so that the couple could work through the rough spot. Our officer, knowing full well that the lady of the house was waiting to for his wise and reliable counsel, advised the man that it might be time to stop playing Xbox and find a job.
The man shared with the officers that he would begin to gather applications immediately.
Another successful intervention; the couple thanked the officers for coming by.
Immediately upon his arrival home that evening, our stalwart peacekeeper snuck over to his personal gaming area to make sure his controller was where he left it; it was.
He placed it carefully within the cabinet and shut the doors tightly. He snuck into his bed, working a little harder than normal not to wake up his partner.
She moved, slightly, as he stayed dead still. He determined that tomorrow she was getting waffles, in bed. -
Been binging Psych and what a beautiful show.... race was NEVER an issue, every one got along, no religion,race, gender or sexual orientation jokes truly needed.
AMAZING SHOW..... LOVING THAT I AM BINGING AND COULD BINGE AND BINGE THIS SHOW
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Netflix?
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@SusanLouisa amazon prime
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I HAVE DECIDED IT JUST ISN'T FUN WITHOUT THE ROSE AND I CAN'T BE MYSELF BECAUSE PEOPLE DECIDED TO BE ALL DRAMATIC AND PLAY GAMES. I TRULY DON'T KNOW HOW I PISSED ANYONE OFF, BUT SUCH IS LIFE, FUCK IT.
THAT SAID, I WILL SAVE EVERYONE THE ISSUE OF IGNORING ME AND SHALL JUST BECOME A BUILDER.
SOCIALIZING JUST ISN'T FUN BECAUSE PEOPLE I THOUGHT WERE FRIENDS WERE TAKERS AND WHEN THE ROSES STOPPED.... SO DID ANY CIVILITY.
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This. Is. Horrible. Why let them win? There are nice genuine people out there Pan. I am not happy about this at all. Shame on them. If I had a dime for every time a woman said to me "If only I could find a nice guy" I'd be very rich. Then they have one in their midst and this is what they do. So, yes, shame on them. ~hugs you tight~ And waiting on my rose next time I see you.
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Thank you for the kind words, but it is what it is.
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There are beautiful roses and then there are beautiful roses
The Climactic Flower https://www.literotica.com/p/the-climactic-flower
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LOL Amen to that.
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@PluushPuussy Actually a quote from the tv show Psyche.
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TOMORROW MARKS THE 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF MY STROKE AND 1ST EMERGENCY BRAIN SURGERY.
LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR DRAMA, ANGER, MIND GAMES AND ANYTHING BUT LOVE AND BEING HONEST. YOU TRULY ARE NOT GUARANTEED EVEN YOUR NEXT BREATH. SO MAKE SURE YOU PUT ALL THE NEGATIVITY ASIDE, TELL THOSE YOU LOVE, YOU LOVE THEM, THOSE THAT CAUSE STRESS LEAVE THEM BEHIND BECAUSE IT REALLY IS TO SHORT TO BE AROUND THOSE WHO CAUSE PAIN, ANGER OR NEGATIVITY IN ANYWAY.
MAY YOUR GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU SAFE.
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HEY IOWA AND KKKLINTON WALL STREET DEMS #GOFUCKYOURSELVES #BERNIE2020
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#FEELTHEBERN
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It's getting to the point
Where I'm no fun anymore
I am sorrySometimes it hurts so badly
I must cry out loud
I am lonely
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Every problem passes through three stages on the way to acceptance: First, it appears laughable; second, it is fought against; third, it is considered self-evident.
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Not a burden but if they aren't there, I don't know. There are some rooms that are built with them in. If all else fails and it takes time, delete everything else in the room except the floor they are on and then make a file for them and merge files. I am sure if you ask one of the builders like Alivia or Torax or one of the others there they could answer far better than I could.
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IT'S FUNNY YET SAD, THE SHOCKING REALITY OF WHAT AMERICANS FEEL ABOUT THEIR INDIVIDUAL HEALTH CAN BE SHOWN BY WHAT SOLD OUT FASTEST. TOILET PAPER.
ONE WOULD THINK, THERE IS A VIRAL DISEASE KILLING PEOPLE, MAYBE I SHOULD BUY SOME FRESH PRODUCE TO STRENGTHEN MY IMMUNITY AND DEFENSES.... NO, AMERICANS THOUGHT, "I'LL NEED TO SHIT".
AND YOU WONDER WHY THIS NATION REFUSES TO VOTE FOR UNIVERSAL HEALTHCARE AND WHY SO MANY ARE SO WILLING TO OPEN REGARDLESS THE DANGERS OF A NEW WAVE......JUST LOOK AT WHAT SOLD OUT.
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I was not one of those who stocked up and hoarded and now when ever I reach the end of a roll there is a bit of panic in my chest despite the full package still in the pantry. You have to wonder though just how long these people thought they were going to be in lockdown. Years? It's been a couple months now and still no loo roll on the shelves. LOL
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Between the shit in game (which was my escape) and real life.... I truly don't know which is worse anymore or why I became so hated for giving roses and being a nice guy.
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You are far from hated!! You are valued. You are friend. You are kind. You are gallant. Stop paying attention to the opinions of those who are none of those things.
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Never listen to the haters. I don’t know any details about what happened but I know what can happen. You need a thick skin if you want to survive in 3dxChat. You need a partner or friends you can really trust to survive in 3dxChat. This game can be Hell and Heaven at the same time.
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There's no guessing about what goes on inside that van.
An uncle restored a van like this and after my cousin rolled it off the highway he cut the top off of it and let us use it as a go-cart through the desert and washes in Arizona. It was lots of fun but you couldn't rest your arm on it without it cutting you. It was a total right-wing image: three chicas driving off-road with .22's, shotguns, and mixers.Remember to vote
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My sis and her ex in the late 90's had turned one into a camper, while she went to ASU in Tempe and he played in a Dead tribute band at the Sail Inn.
I never forget to vote but somehow, from what you say, we may be on differing sides with differing ideas of government. BUT life would be boring if we all agreed on everything.
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TO OUR NEIGHBORS TO THE NORTH, HAPPIEST OF CANADA DAYS.... MAY YOUR YOUR COUNTRY FOREVER STAND STRONG AND TALL.À NOS VOISINS AU NORD, JOURNÉES LES PLUS HEUREUSES DU CANADA .... QUE VOTRE PAYS SOIT FORT POUR TOUJOURS FORT ET FORT.
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In October my avi will be pink for breast cancer awareness and I am planning a weekend benefit the 16th-18. IF interested in djing or helping PM me or look me up in the Forum or discord pan#7821. plan to have a paypal for donations as well during the event.
ALSO, I have decided there will be no more roses. I am tired of being a nice guy and shat on, ignored and yelled at by people who hug me and then when I dare to hug them they bitch at me. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. YOU CLAIM IN YOUR PROFILES TO "REMEMBER THERE ARE REAL PEOPLE BEHIND THE SCREENS".... YET YOU YOURSELVES FORGET, SHAME ON YOU.
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IT WOULD BE AWESOME TO SEE YOU IN AND OTHERS IN PINK.
It is ALL cancer, I agree, but like I told someone, I smoke so if I get cancer I knew of the chances but chose to anyway. With breast/prostate there really is no rhyme or reason because it is so random and destroys lives of people who have done all they could to avoid it. Don't get me wrong as someone with serious lung issues (sarcoidosis) who has tried everything to quit but truly can't. Like 10 years ago, I was in the hospital for 7 1/2 weeks and never had a cigarette, didn't even really miss them. The very day I was released one of the first things I did was buy a pack of cigarettes. That wasn't the first time either, boot camp same thing. Left boot camp went straight to Orlando airport for my flight to San Diego for A school and the first thing I did was buy a pack of cigarettes.
As for the roses, I don't know, the past few weeks (and I won't delve to deep here, in a pm maybe) I just feel that people take advantage of me and treat me like crap for their own selfish reasons. I had one person, approach me out of nowhere Telling me they wanted to show me a place in one of the default rooms few people knew about the next day because it was late... they even set up a time. Next day, I'm on and see them on my friend's list not wanting to be a pest I send a rose to let them know I am there... never answered me. So, I was stood up, big deal... but that was just the start of a trend like that. I don't know if I pissed someone off or what but damn. Then there are the ones who come up and hug me in a room, so I go to hug them and all of a sudden they are cussing me out in pm, "don't you EVER fucking touch me you green mental midget." Won't name names, but they have found themselves off my friends list or depending on what they say ignored fast, then they wonder why. And almost every one of them have that little, (paraphrasing here) this may be a game to you but to some it may be taken differently, treat others with the respect you want because there is a living person on the other side.
So, instead of not giving roses to certain people like that or to give them and know they are not appreciated, I have come to the conclusion, fuck it, why give them at all, I mean very few will even talk to me or say thank you. It's like they don't even seem to care. I will probably do it in PMs but why do it in local when it just interrupts others conversations and the people getting them for the most part truly don't give 2 shits.
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But i had the similar reaction at first time.
