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I WILL NO LONGER BE FREELY GIVING ROSES OUT. TOO MANY PEOPLE MADE IT A NEGATIVE THING. NO THEY WERE NOT "GIVEN OUT OF DESPERATION FOR ATTENTION", NO THEY WERE NOT GIVEN OUT BECAUSE "I EXPECTED SEX", THEY WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE A "MANDATORY " THING WHERE PEOPLE FELT I OWED THEM A ROSE, BUT ONCE GIVEN REFUSED TO TALK TO ME OR EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE IF I SAID HI (THAT IS NOT ASKING FOR ATTENTION, THAT IS EXPECTING COMMON DECENCY AND RESPECT.)  

I DID IT FOR ONE REASON AND AS HARD AS THAT MAY BE TO BELIEVE THAT REASON IS THE TRUTH. ALL I WANTED WAS A SMILE AND FOR THE RECIPIENT TO FEEL SPECIAL AND TO SEE SOMEONE CARED. I FEEL BAD THAT PEOPLE CHOSE TO MAKE IT SUCH A NEGATIVE AND PUT ME IN SUCH AN ATTITUDE THAT I NO LONGER FEEL THEY WERE APPRECIATED FOR THE REASON I GAVE THEM, TO MANY IT BECAME A JOKE AND PERHAPS IT WAS MY FAULT.

ANYWAY, IT IS WHAT IT IS AND I APOLOGIZE TO THE PEOPLE THAT TRULY ENJOYED THEM AND LOOKED FORWARD TO GETTING THEM.

I'M JUST NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH THE DRAMA OF HAVING TO EXPLAIN WHAT I FELT WAS A NOBLE AND KIND GESTURE.