I'm trying to get better with social things. I like to talk with people but I have so much on my plate that I deal with on a day to day. I've dealt with so much hate and rejection based on who I am and what I believe. I just don't have the confidence to really be what I see so much of here on 3DX. I think I'm a pretty cool person to talk to. I've met some nice people so far and have had some sexual fun with others and it really was a treat. I'm not sure why or where the shyness came from. Even before I discovered my truth I was shy. I'm like anyone else in the world. Wants to be loved and stuff like that. I've heard some people tell me tips on how to get better with the timid feelings but it's hard when I'm actually on the stage. I hope nobody thinks I'm rude if I don't talk in Local or World. I don't really no anyone so I don't see a need to say anything. Anyway, this a step I guess. Get my thoughts out but I don't know if anyone will read it. I think it's cool that they have this seeing that I journal in real life. I think it's important to get your thoughts out on paper. I guess this journal is solely based on 3DX which for me is okay. I can just focus on 3DX stuff and I won't feel so shy about my real inner thoughts that my real life journal is infested with. That is top secret information that I'll never share with people here!! lol. But this is a step in a good direction. Currently at this Event 4 party. So far the music is amazing!! Met a nice guy, he seems to like me a lot already. It's a bit odd. I never experienced that before. I'm not usually on the receiving end of being admired but it feels good. But I hope he understands that I'm really here to live out my truth that is quite the lustful one. I can't get too personal with people here. I just can't. Only way I know how to deflect that is to sort of be un-touchable. I can't really have that genuine love for people here if I'm not willing to open up to them. But, I'll open my mouth and suck a fat dick or suck a fat pussy? That's good, right? I hope that's cool. I'm not sure how it works here socially but I'm learning as I go. So far? Awesome experience!