It's been about a month and I haven't written anything here mostly because things have been fairly good lately, until now.The past has come back to haunt me yet again. My Ex in the game ( I will not use names) did some really awful things to me towards the end of our relationship, told other people some deeply personal and privately painful things that I had confided in her about and had those people use these things to try to hurt me all the while blaming others for the harassment that was occurring.( not the first time she has played sick games with people here I have learned) then she just disappeared... POOF gone. which was a blessing in more ways than one, peace was made and the harassment stopped. Something else wonderful happened but that is another story
So months go by and low and behold there she is, new name new face exact same profile. Ran from me whenever i entered the same room, I never pursued her or tried to make her talk to me, I just let her be. but she can't seem to let things be, she has started to insinuate herself into my friends lives ( even ones she hated ) without telling them who she is / was and wasn't really responsive to those friends who knew who she was. Until now
I will admit I have difficulty some times making friends, I am often Guarded and closed off. partly that is just how I am and partly because of things that have happened here. There is one person that I consider to be my closest friend in the game, it is / was a true friendship, no sex involved just wonderful company and fun times and talks. Her private life here has always been her own I have never stuck my nose in it, so to speak , other than to be there for her when things aren't going well and when they are going very well. this friend approached my ex to ask her why he had been hanging on the periphery of our group for a few nights and my ex told her it wasn't intentional and she would keep her distance. ( bullshit )( cough )
Now just the other day my friend,yes the one I wrote about above tells me that my ex asked her to be her Domme, something something sad and lonely my friend asked if it was ok with me, which it was not and is not, I know that may be very wrong on my part but it just isn't ok.. and it did hurt that my friend thought it would be ok. There are 500 + people here she can fuck yet she keeps trying to get with my friends when she knows how it would make me feel. It has fractured my friendship with one of ( I thought ) the truly good people here and a very very dear friend.
very sad and discouraged again ......