Always easier said though… than done. I’m no exception, not immune to its infection. Guilty of harboring this poison within my heart, feeding it, letting it grow until robbed of my fun here. And for what? Nothing of importance.
I once enjoyed this Forum; contributing, participating and enjoying all the eye candy. Sure, I didn’t much like some of the Forum drama but learned to “look away” along with avoiding the local Bullies. But these past months… watching LIKES being exploited and corrupted pushed me over my edge.
Though I couldn’t care less about the Leaderboard… I couldn’t let go of this charade in deception, having little tolerance for cheaters, liars or deceivers. Ironic, how it’s often our strengths and unwavering convictions that turn on their Master, edging us to our DARK side. Turning me into something… NOT me.
My inner battle rages... struggling to let it go… compulsions making it hard. But trying to stop my freefall, refusing to succumb to demons of my creation. Reminding myself what is truly important and The Reason i come here… much too important to forsake.
Shame on ME... any TIME is too precious to waste on hate.