PurrTgirl

Dear Diary,
 
I'm cool. Really, I'm cool. I just almost lost a few screws when a person came to me in PM telling me to not have sex in their room. Clearly it's a party club room but for them to come at me in PM to tell me that sort of thing had me feel single'd out based on what happened at Event 4. They been reading my Forum posts allegedly so they should know that I've well learned my lesson since then and wasn't even intending on doing such a thing in there in the first place but to be PM'd like that and be told to not have sex in there, suddenly I took on a rare hat that I never wear, let alone knew existed. Some sort of strong wild cat persona took over and I simply asserted to the person why I wasn't going to have sex in there anyway. But the way I said it was sort of like, condescending but not rude or raggedy. It was classy, tactful, and actually made me feel kind of good. In so many words I said that many 3DX users lack the mental aptitude to stimulate me sexually anyway so that should tell you how slim the chances were of me having sex in your room was anyway. It just came out but I read it again and was like oh snap! I said that? We kept talking and we're good now but wow. I didn't know I had it in me to sort of be that sort of assertive. Is there some warrior wild cat gene I've been blind to and am now discovering? You know what? It's these new friends I have, that's what it is. LOL. When I was a shy little pussy cat in tears they was all like fuck them, who needs them, fuck that shit, let me at them so I can give them a piece of mind. All that energy is what they have and I think it may have got into my blood stream some how. I don't know, lol. Scary part is, it actually felt good. But no, I'm not going to turn into a bitch now. But that is a step in a right direction with my shyness. That's my first time actually standing up for myself and it actually resulted in a resolution and not drama. PurrTgirl gone Bad? I hope that's not the case, but PurrTgirl is mustering up some courage it seems. 

I dont roleplay much. i decided when i came to this game i was going to play the game as myself.
i treat all the other avatars as people all different all with their own personality.
Thats my roleplay

6PM  Eastern Standard time UNTIL?????? 

JessicaX?

Dear Diary,
 
Another day in paradise. I tell you what. These profiles are so entertaining to read. So many people here with an actual GOOD sense of humor. It's so fun reading some of these profiles. Usually from a profile I can tell if I'm going to have sex with a person or not. I love my foreign friends and all but if they don't speak good English then it's hard for me to get attracted to them sexually. All these avatars look related anyway so it's not like the visual is really going to make an exception for anyone. It's what people say that gives their visual attraction. So with that said I had to kindly decline an offer that was made to me. Some guy wanted me to fuck his wife. Apparently she wanted to dominate me but she spoke little English. I wasn't sure how that was going to work but I was not excited about that so much. Just dancing looking PurrT in a friend's room though. She's really got it packed out in here with the Reggae music blazing. I love some good reggae. Getting lots of questions about what a sapiosexual is. I'm surprised a lot of people don't know what it is though. It's fun to explain. I think all of us are sapiosexual to an extent. I'm only different when it comes to fucking though cause I don't really talk like others do during that hot moment. But when I try to explain how I do it and then they try to get with it, it just seems a bit off. I see myself as a person with a pretty sound mind and stuff and I tend to do things the smart way not the hard way. I just find it a bit weird for me to focus so much on sex talk during sex when I didn't come here for the sex talk, but the avatars. Not saying I won't talk! That's boring! But my style of talking during sex is a bit unique lol. Seriously, I'm that girl that will talk to you about the game last night while you're pounding me in froggy style. I don't know, I just find that so sexy cause it's honest, real, and friendly.

Dear Diary,
 
OMG I think I found one of those people who I simply light up when I see them. She is so cool and we have good sexual chemistry. She's new like me but much newer. I been here for a couple months but she's been here like a couple weeks! She's already creating awesome rooms though. And I love her style of dress. She has the wild and free look about her. And always has a beer in her hand lol. 2 Cute!! Overall, my day has been a bit peaceful. Some guy was talking down about my friends which wasn't too cool but whatever. I know who I'm loyal to. Love not Hate. This sapiosexual thing though? Really needed to own this about myself. It truly does what the weekly schedule did only 10 times better. Filters out un-wanted sex partners! It truly is a unique style based on what I've already been witnessing so far. It's really not about doing things that make me uncomfortable. Nor do I want to enslave myself in the thinking that I have to do it a certain way to please someone when they really don't even have to have sex with me. My style is a unique one in that area. It's actually kind of funny and still sexy and real. But I don't want to criticize others for how they do things too harshly. I might have did that a little bit in my last talk with you. But seriously, I can re-call being a teenager typing ' sex talk. ' No real brain power in that and really a person's mind is ultimately what gets my dick hard. Yea, I wanna fuck now but don't stop the conversation!

Dear Diary,
 
I believe I figured out the kind of sex partner I am. I'm a sapiosexual for crying out loud, lol. Makes total sense. I'm so attracted at the mind of a person and their personality. I think that's why the descriptive stuff doesn't do much for me cause that doesn't require much intellect. Yay! I figured it out!

Dear Diary,
 
Well, today started with a hot sex moment! lol. But once again, learned something about myself with the whole sex thing. You already know I've never had sex this way before with 3D avatars involved. I was more used to digi chats and java script type cyber sex where it was just the text but now? I can see the action! So it sort of puts a new look on what I type now. Feels kind of odd to me for some reason. I read what my partner says to try and learn and it's kinda awkward for me. Usually I have my imagination to play with when I write sexy stuff before on those digi chats but now that I actually see the action I'm not sure what to type now lol. I try to go along and copy the style of my partners thinking that's how to do it but the more I look at it, it doesn't feel right. It's fair to say, I don't know how to 3DX fuck like I thought. At first it was fine but the more I look at it, it seems strange. Like I'll describe sucking a dick and stuff but it's like, I don't know, I can't keep it going for a long time for some reason. I run out of things to say yet my partners seem to have loads to say. The whole time I'm aroused at the visual mostly. LOL. I need 3DX Sex Education!

Dear Diary,
 
Okay so I think the whole weekly schedule thing has run it's course. I'm thinking about it now and that really sort of puts me in a box. I mean yea it's clever but I'm thinking what if I meet someone and make a good connection and really wanna fuck them but can't because I'm staying true to a cute little schedule? lol, now the idea is silly to me. Learning curves I tell you! I guess now I have to figure out a new About Me display. It was fun though but really not practical to stick with forever!

Dear Diary,
 
Well, as I play this game I learn as I go and have come to realize my role here. And it's not a club owner lol. Yea, I tried the User Room route. Just to see what it's like. Titty Tuesdays was really fun for my club but after that it's been pretty dead. The deadness sort of had me look inside myself and realize I really don't even have the passion to be a host of a room. It's already nerve racking for me to keep up with greeting people who come in and stuff. Seems like a lot of work! Besides, I actually find more joy in supporting others rooms, especially my new friends. And there rooms look so much better than mine! I'd rather be in theirs than my own. It's all good. I think the only time I'll open a room is on Friendly Fridays but that'll be for friends only. That would be better for me. No strangers! And then I can use that day to sort of chill out and relax. Won't be out and about much in the 3DX community. I'll treat it like my house, just chilling all day and friends that come over we'll just kick it and shoot the shit. But I do have several friends who have been wanting to have sex with me but due to my schedule they've had to wait LOL. I swear my little schedule thing truly tickles me and it's so fun. Anyway, much love to those successful User Room owners who have consistent busy traffic in it. Not everyone can be leaders. I'm cool with being a supporter.

Dear Diary,
 
Okay so now I'm a bit confused. There's was this hot Indian girl that put her strap to my ass and it was short lived because she wanted to see a picture of my actual dick. Now you know how shy I am as it is and I was definitely not about to show my dick to her! lol. I've never done anything like that anyway EVER! Not knocking those who do. I admire their boldness to show their stuff to any and everybody on the internet but me I never been comfortable with doing that type of thing. It was embarrassing enough to tell her how big I was. When I told her that's when she was like ' fuck me. ' But I had to let her know that today is Thrust Me Thursdays! I take dick/straps today but offered her to add me so she can get a taste of my dick tomorrow on Friendly Fridays. Anyway, she's still putting the strap to me as we're talking about this whole show her my actual dick thing and I told her I'm not as bold as you. She suddenly poofs on me. So I'm like well I looked at her profile and she said she doesn't mix real life with here. Yet she wants and only plays with people that have their real photos. First red flag. And then at the bottom it said No Cold Invites or she ignores you. But she COLDED ME! I had to PM her to sort of let her know that I'm only interested in being penetrated. And then that whole thing happened. But that's kind of confusing. I read profiles and honor what they say and stuff. I was even surprised that she even colded me if she's one that ignores people for colding her. On top of that she only plays with people who have photos and if not she say don't even waste time PMing her. So everything I read in her profile she totally went against her own little thing. I don't know. It was fun getting fucked for a whole 5 minutes I guess? LOL.

Dear Diary,
 
Okay, I'm totally not a dominant. I'm too shy for that shit lol. I don't know, it's like I'm putting myself on the spot and now I feel awkward. I'll have to change my Thursdays up a bit. Instead of Thrusting Thursdays I'll change it to Thrust Me Thursdays. Yea! That'll work better.

Dear Diary,
 
I'm so irritated. My right eye been bothering me since yesterday. I'm a one eyed bandit today cause it's still irritated. These new contacts I bought seem to be wanting to be difficult with me. So I had to order some frames yesterday so I won't have to wear those PurrT things all the time. So I have a little head wrap over my hair and stuff and got it to where my hair is covering my right eye lol. Literally looking at this right now with one eye. So yea, just wondering around eye'ing everything. Had a funny woman come to me not too long ago trying to be a dominant type. Don't get me wrong, I have no problems being a submissive. If I was to choose one I'd more than likely choose the sub role but I do toy with both depending on the partner but this woman here? OMG! I'm on the pole just twirling around the thing and she comes up and sits down and immediately starts jacking off. So I'm like oh okay so she seems interested. So I took my shorts and panties off. She PMs me like SHUT UP! And suck this dick bitch! I literally started laughing. I even typed it to her cause that was so funny to me. She tries to partner me, I declined it. Still dancing she says I'm waiting! I'm like I know baby. Still dancing. Then I carried on in the conversation and said it didn't look too sexy to see here jacking off a ghost dick with her pants still on. She then says who gave you permission to speak!! I'm like wow, this is so hilarious. I responded saying I did, baby. She then poofs. It always tickles me how some think that being a dominant means being an asshole. That's truly not how it works. But I never been the type to like that sort of sex anyway. The rough, degrading, humiliating type stuff is something I never been into. I'd rather a dominant be very assertive. Know what they want and don't beat around the bush. Polite and respectful. Like a dominant wouldn't ask me if I was busy or would I like to fuck. A dominant would simply tell me that they want me and that turns me on instantly. But today? Thrusting Thursdays? I'm doing the dominant thing so I guess I'll have to be the dominant I wish to be dominated by. 

Dear Diary,
 
Serious elbow grease today. My voyeur day. Seems like each day brings a different type of cool person my way with my little 3DX weekly schedule. People actually seem to enjoy it. I have to stay true to it though lol. If I compromise it then it will die and become useless. I like how it has me to focus on a thing and if it has me to not have sex that day? Then I can allow temptation to arouse me and restrain myself. I think that's sexy to want someone but not do anything with them. But they know I want them and I know they want me but because it's Wanker Wednesdays! they have to wait lol. I'm actually looking forward to my Friendly Fridays. It's going to get really really friendly with some of my friends I know for sure. Stick to the code! And enjoy the show!

Dear Diary,
 
OMG today has been a blast. I think I'm getting a hang of this role play thing. There was a guy who was new so his profile didn't really have much going on with it. No pictures and a real brief profile. But it said that he was wondering if someone could be his guide. I guess he meant sex. He ended up pm'ing me as I was checking out his profile and we got to chatting. Obviously, I asked him how new he was. He said about a week but it's his 3rd day actually on the game. I said well, the only thing I'm willing to show you as far as sex is how to take it up the ass. He said ok, I'm not opposed to that. I said cool, let's begin the anal tutorial lol. I all of a sudden became a sex instructor on the Yacht today! It was so funny but aroused me at the same time. On top of that, my home girl logged on, this is the one I was fucking at the beach but 3DX cock blocked me, anyway so she hit me in the PM like girl I hate when I get disconnected to. So I was like well I'm about to give this guy an anal tutorial, you wanna be my helper? She said yea. So I have the guy follow me to the bedroom of the Yacht, in comes my home girl, we in group chat. OMG, it was too funny. I told him that what you wanna do before taking it up the ass is to lube up the dick first. So I had him suck my dick up against the wall. My home girl watching while playing with her kitty cat. I was actually starting to get turned on when initially I was being playful. So I'm teaching him how to talk during the sex and stuff like that. We move from the wall, to the bed. I'm putting my dick all in his virgin ass. My home girl still watching. So I said fuck it and asked him if he ever been in a 3some? He says no. And that's all she wrote. Me and my home girl fucking the shit out this guy! LOL. That was so fun. Not bad for my first role play. This can be very entertaining.

Dear Diary,
 
I can always rely on you to listen to me. And I just have one thing to say. How do I handle being disconnected while connected to a hot sexy woman while filling her juicy ass up with my thick dick? I mean, seriously. I was so rock hard and heated and she was moaning and giving me all she has and suddenly I crash!! She had me touching myself. I just wanted to be lost in her ass for the rest of the day to be quite honest. I mean I was eating her ass and she was eating mines and then she was sucking my dick and then I returned the favor and then I just put it in her sweet ass and she was so into it and I was into it and then it happened. Disconnected!! Glad she's on my friend list though, but still. It's the principle, you know. Now the moment is ruined. Like the whole set up was great. We at the beach. Talking, chilling. She all of a sudden said damn I want you. I'm like shit girl let's go find some where to fuck then. And we running around trying to find a spot. We find one and it got nasty. Now it's ruined. I can't even get my head in the game to get to that level again now cuz it'll seem forced lol. Like ' ok, sorry I got disconnected...where were we? ' I never was good with that. The moment is ruined but I enjoyed it for however long it lasted. -sighs- my PurrT dick.

Dear Diary,
 
Titty Tuesdays! Perfect timing for this day cause I can wear my star nipple pasties and due the whole 4th of July outfit thing. Other than that, I'm just sort of in my head and wondering what today will bring. I have a confession though. I'm starting to get a little annoyed with some men on here. The men who are men I've had sex with. It's like their conversation is predictable. That is so boring to me. Like this one guy he seems to always say ' mmmm ' before anything. I'm like are you serious? What's with the mmmm's every time. And can I please find more men who can talk about other things other than sexual role play stuff. I feel like if I'm not cuddling or fucking a guy he literally has nothing to say. That is what's getting annoying. Like do you have any hobbies or anything? Like something that would actually have me to like you more cause when I like you more than that's when my sexual desire for you grows. It's that simply hi, how are you, what you doing, are you busy conversation cause I know ultimately what they want. Sex! I'm not trying to turn into a bitch but I do need to come up with a fun way to deal with this without hurting feelings cause I do realize that men like these literally live their lives thinking with their dick so I need to learn how to use that to my advantage.

Dear Diary,
 
Today has truly been a good day so far. From the turbulence last night turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I've found a group of friends who were my support system and have helped me cope with things. One new friend in particular, happens to be one of the guys I had the 3 some with on the DJ booth. Turns out? He's a talented, educated business man in the area of marketing. He literally makes videos and things for a living. Come to realize he only colded me to the DJ Booth for a video. All the while, ppl are seeing us as rude and inconsiderate. Not even realizing how 3DX is about to bless my new bearded friend because of his talent and lively personality. It truly shows how good truly wins over evil. We're dancing it up at the last Event 4 party. It truly is a awesome way to end it. Event 4 will always be a good 3Dx memory for me. And it's all because of him..
 

Dear Diary,
 
I woke up from a nice sleep and oddly felt victorious. I noticed the many PMs I received while I slept. I had sort of a peace that I haven't felt, ever actually. Just last night I had the water works going feeling down and now I'm feeling quite strong at moment. I have a better outlook on 3DX now. A better one. A more mature one. And I genuinely don't even have hard feelings for anyone who may have had an opinion about me that I didn't agree with. Because I realized that it was me putting myself out there to have them assess me in the first place and quite frankly everyone is entitled to an opinion on any and every thing and/or body. I'm asking questions about Roleplay in another Forum to get a better understanding of that which is so far a great help. Once I get the core understanding of roleplay then I'll be able to move forward with more respectful moves. From what I found on Google and reading a few things it seems like we all are role playing to an extent. I guess when chatting we get so caught up in the connection from chatting that we could easily just undermine the 3D. But after reading this bit of information about Roleplay? I can literally and honestly say that YES, I violated the DJ in a major way and it was very disrespectful. Cause the roleplay was, Event 4, DJs are playing live music for the party, why in the hell are 3 people fucking on the DJ booth distracting the DJ? Because it was not about the music being interrupted..it was literally about the ROLEPLAY. That's why I'm at peace cause I have a better understanding now.I'm like wow duh? Of course it's rude to fuck on the DJ Booth, the record MIGHT SKIP! Is it really going to happen? No. But it's Roleplay so the answer is now YES, it could happen. Get off that thing before you destroy the equipment!! lol. Oh my goodness. Learning curves I guess.

Dear Diary,
 
I guess I need to learn about role play. My ignorance in that is what has me looking stupid. I'm not really sure what it is now. I thought role play was just typing out stuff that you were doing or want to do. I don't really know how deep it goes. I don't even know who is actually role playing when I go in a room. But the whole DJ thing I can see how that is role play and I did mess that up. GOSH, I'm so stupid!! I feel like a bad person. All because I'm ignorant to role play. This is crazy. I've never been looked at as a bad person until today and it's because of ignorance? Really?! Had I have been educated on role play this never would've happened. Hell, I never would've even went to the Event 4 on my Slutty Sunday! OMG! It's role play. Time to google this.

Dear Diary,
 
I don't know. Now, I'm being criticized. Not use to this type of criticism. I'm being accused of having an ego and some sort of attention seeker and I'm honestly just trying to figure this game out. They had their views, I had mine. The end result? Me feeling like crap with teary eyes. I didn't really come here for this type of feeling. I guess that lady was right. 3DX comes with highs and lows. This is my first low moment I guess. And it's my fault. Cause I'm playing the game wrong. Nobody taught me how to play this. I'm trying to understand. My assertiveness is being interpreted as something totally not me. I'm not a trouble maker. I'm not a rude person. This sucks..

Dear Diary,
 
I feel like such a fool. So embarrassed right now. This is only adds to why I don't really speak much. Why do I always seem to put my foot in my mouth? If that's even the right phrase. But seriously, here I am thinking I'm being victimized and it took one person to help me see that I was the blind one. I'm so embarrassed. So, tired of talking. Typing rather. I was so passionate in a thread about what happened at Event 4 and the end result is me being humbled...bitch sit down. Cause, clearly I was the bitch.

Dear Diary,
 Well, I was going to post something else but I just read a response to my latest entry to you. I think overtime as people get to know how I play this game they'll have a more healthy respect for what happened at Event 4. Slutty Sundays is simply me being the slut for those who tend to send cold invites. Being an under dog myself I have compassion for the misunderstood and judged. One thing that still puzzles me is how people tend to take games like this like it's real life. In this being a fantasy game I do have an understanding of what fantasy is. NOT REAL LIFE. Granted, I've been to a swinger club before which was pretty shocking. I highly doubt I would've been kicked out of that club if I literally had sex with 2 guys on their DJ booth, but their booth was not even reachable for anyone to do such a thing. That being said, I come here to simply live a bit of a fantasy life. Things I wouldn't do in real life, I do them here cause everyone has thoughts from time to time that tend to have them in a day dream for minutes on end to later snap out of it. I was given a cold invite and didn't know where I was going to end up. When I saw it was actually 2 guys and we ended up being on the DJ booth, sure, seems that some would say that I could've ended the sex out of respect for the DJ. But, that would kill the meaning of my Slutty Sundays. If they wanted to fuck me on that DJ booth, so be it. And for that I feel like I'll be remembered and reliable for that type of sex. The cold invite sex that's spontaneous, wild, and free. This is why I tend to stay to myself most times because I don't really understand people for the most part. I have a new outlook on DJs though. Not all, but some. Some DJs understand what a DJ is, a party starter. A DJ is not a priest by any means, especially a DJ on 3DX. Being that this is a Sex Game I don't understand how dicks flying around in your face would be a problem. I spoke to the people that I needed to speak to because I do respect others feelings to simply say that I didn't do what I do to personally hurt them or cause an issue. I was simply playing 3DX.

Dear Diary,
 
I'm kind of feeling blue. I just left the Event 4 and seeing that it's Slutty Sunday for me I have to accept cold invites. Well, a guy sent me one that involved another guy and it was on top of the DJ booth. I was totally caught of guard and to be honest it was very exciting. It actually looked like a party. Wild, crazy, fun type vibe. The music was perfect for a 3some on a DJ booth scenario. But, the DJ ignored me. People were complaining, only a few but still. Just to know that it wasn't accepted by 1 or 2, especially a DJ is what has me feeling a bit sad. I thought a DJ was supposed to encourage such wild behavior at a party. And this is not just ANY party, this is the Event 4! And when I finally got to talk to the DJ that ignored me to explain that any other day that most likely wouldn't have happened her reply was a bit unsettling. Sort of like a cold arrogant type response. Didn't make me feel good. Brought me back to those getting bullied online days. Anyway, I guess I'll just chill out for a while. Hopefully, this down feeling will go away and I'll open my club tonight. But right now, I'm not feeling so slutty for my Slutty Sunday thing. But the picture I took was the end result of the 3some I was in. It actually brought the party up to a higher level. But I guess 1 person has the power to kill joy. I wasn't trying to do that. Wasn't trying to be all on the DJ booth with two dicks pumping me! I'm just playing 3DX. I thought it was supposed to be FUN!

Dear Diary,
 
Finally, I have a break to write to you lol. As you know, it's Slutty Sundays for me. It has not failed to disappoint. My goodness! I've been around for a short while and noticed how some don't like colds. I didn't know what it was when I first saw the term so I asked someone and they told me what it was. I asked them why would that be rude to just partner someone without talking first and when they told me and I agreed some what. I do respect others point of views. However, I have a bit of a different one. I happen to think that a cold invite is the most ALPHA thing a man/woman could do. It actually turns me on! Probably because I don't get colded in real life lol. But yes, I do enjoy it. So many various styles of sex I've witnessed today. You have the romantic ones, the rough ones, the quick lick stick and get out ones. All are good in their own way. My last partner flattered me and said that I was his best time in a long time and to think it started with a cold. I blushed. Like just because a person colds me doesn't mean they won't talk. It just means that they're very ALPHA and just go out and grab it. I love it. But I'm not crazy. I limit it to one day to accept those. Cause OMG, I've been fucking every where. No telling where I'll be on Sundays. I'll go to a room and then next thing you know I'll get a cold invite to someone's apartment, which I actually prefer by the way. People tend to be a bit more open when they are in private which is what I like. This one guy didn't know or realize I was a T-Girl so after sucking his dick in a User Room he noticed my dick hanging and said that he wanted to suck it but not there. So we went to his place and it was great. He actually sucks pretty good for some one who never sucked a dick before. I asked him if he ever been fucked in the ass before and he said for me he would try it. The flattery is crazy! So, I was gentle with his virgin ass. It was awesome. Anyway, this day has so far been living up to the hype. My first Slutty Sunday shows promise! I'll end the day with the opening of my night club and slut it out in there. Hope it's a good turn out.