alisonn

alcohol is the best medicine to recover birdie

a wonderful magical night indeed ^-^ you're amazing together <3 ! now go have fun you crazy love birds !! ^-^

What?

/me finishes her bottle of wine and goes to bed >.>

well i hope i wasn't trolled but it damn sure feels like I've been played and used. but that's not a topic i'd like to discuss here it's hard to truly judge someone's intentions through mere text. emotions can't be read through them. so it's equally as easy to misinterpreted words and someone's​ intentions at it is to misjudge someone. it's sad, but it's just how it is. and in the end, having no consequences makes the weaker minded people do unfair and brutal things. like promising love, sending out personal information, insulting or anything of the sort. it's why 3dx can be dangerous not only emotionally, but also for your own personal safety, because there are some crazy people out there with menacing intentions. it why it just needs a warning sign. that's enough to keep people aware i hope. also i'm kinda drunk atm, so maybe i'm just blabbing nonsense and not understanding your words >.>

what do you mean by this exactly? Because the post sure isn't trolling or trying to troll anyone. it's there to warn people, and send out a message to people that if they ever need help, they, tbey shouldn't wait. I'm really trying to let people know that if they have any issues and need to talk, i'm always an option. i could have misunderstood what you said though​, so don't feel attacked, I don't intend it as such.

it's true. and i think a lot is owed to the fact that people crave love so much that a lot of it isn't formed from feeling for one another but for the craving of being in a relationship. that's a very unhealthy way to start a relationship even though it might be a subconscious thing. that and the fact that we all share a common Purpose when we go to 3DX. it's not only two gain intimacy but it's to socialise and to make your desires come true. are sharing that seem purpose makes it really easy for you to talk and to share your thoughts. and also there is simply no consequences in this place. you can pretty much do anything without being physically hurt without being fined or anything of the sort. you can pretty much do anything you want. it makes you think less of your actions. but that's all just opinion.

aye i live in a country where this happens often as well sadly. it even starts to feel like my entire country is becoming more and more cold by the day, and the value of a person seems to diminish as we grow more attached to our technology and individuality proceeds to grow. i hope as we grow older we start to realize the value humanity again, Because at this point i feel like we live in a cold dead planet.

i understood quite​ well what you said. still a horrible way to think. but now you're judging at random​. i won't reply to you anymore, you seem...too cold.

this is something i agree with completely, yet it's also the thing That makes it even more dangerous. i.m.o. these "trolls" are not as much the issue. poisonous people can be evaded simply eith an ignore button and solved quite easily. but it's the people that latch on to you, make you feel and believe they care for you and see you as their best friend that can cause the real damage. of course not everyone will hurt you and not everyone is a bad choice of friend. but there are those few that make you love everything about them, and in the end leave you with nothing at all. if i need to pick an example i can tell you something that happened to me....in a very small nutshell. i loved my best friend, and my best friend was chasing someone else. she stopped chasing her, and eventually told me that we would be together. after weeks of keeping it low, we finally got together, making me the happiest person alive. 3 days later i got dumped, she told me she still loved the other person, and never even loved me at all. she proceeded to, not talk to me. push me back as "just a friend" instead of best friend. lied to me about never getting in a relationship again in 3dx Because she is now with someone else. all while she was engaged irl and married her bf a few days ago. and just so much more i don't want to explain "again". these are people that don't take in to account that they might be seriously affecting someone's life and Messing things up really badly for them. but in their mind, they did nothing wrong, or it were "just a few mistakes". though the person at the other side is becoming depressed or stressed or ill or even suicidal. the problem lies in people understanding that this place needs to be taken very seriously and with caution. if you don't but make promises such as love and true friendship, things are going to turn out very badly. maybe not so much for thst person, but for the people that person hangs around with. my original statement stands. be careful, treat it with caution, and if you need help, Don't be afraid to ask

never said she's a bad person. just a bad mentality.

a person with a mindset like this on a forum post like mine can and should always be tsken with a grain of salt. or perhaps a hand full of it. what a horrible way to think.

community and virtual world

seems a lot of people agreed, and a a few don't. this is my 2 cents on the matter. there are games out there that cause heat to fling around like shit hitting a fan in the literal sense. anger, games breaking, houses breaking, people hitting themselves, "fuck you and fuck your mother i hope you get cancer omgomgomg !!!" 3dx could be listed under "games" yes, and you can treat it like one. but the same goes for gambling,yet there are clinics, rehab centers, etc. for gambling addiction. though gambling is a collective name for all the games you play. (poker, roulette, black jack,etc) so just as simple as that, 3dx can be listed under "virtual reality". games have goals, and things to do to reach that goal. in call of duty, you shoot people and get points for it. in world of warcraft you train and get better and defeat bosses etc. in 3dx you don't have a goal, only things you desire. and the way to achieve these things is to socialize, interact, and to become close to each other, to keep doing it. whether you want to or not, you must interact with people to gain something from them...which in 3dx, is intimacy. that way, people can get emotionally affected very quickly. and for some people it's hard to let that go because they can express themselves better here, because there are no true consequences for your actions. and the love and care and so on you gain from your friends, for some people, is something they have missed for their whole life. so when you get such a thing from a virtual reality, or "game", it keeps you hooked, because it releases dopamine in your brain, just as much as smoking, drugs, and alcohol do. (this is a fact) the story i have posted, is not a thing that happened to myself, but i have similarities..a lot of them, including suicide and lonelyness a simple thing that caused trouble for me that i needed to find out for myself, was a lack of a father, moving countries twice, not ever being able to keep a group of friends more than a year, and never truly finding someone that loved me (girlfriend/boyfriend). when you gain those things from a "game", it suddenly turns in to something that holds much more meaning, so from that perspective, 3dx isn't a game. in the literal sense, yes, it is a (only) a game. but in reality, it's a platform and a place. it's a digital world with no goals but lust and fulfilling desires. you don't "play" 3dx. you live in 3dx. because you're trying to be you, and that way gain something you crave. and you gain it from the minds of other people...real flesh and blood behind the other screen. so, to summarize. 3dx isn't a game, it's place...almost like a digital "location" you live in 3dx and you fulfill your desires. and when your desires are to have friends or be loved, than getting stuck is quite easily. you don't have to be mentally unstable to get trapped like that. just being shown something of a dream you had, is enough to trap you. i know i am mentally not stable anymore, and 3dx helped to cause my hell.

hi there 3dx ! what a wonderful place this is! the graphics are so amazing, the people are nice. what a fun game this is. i'll play this for no more than an hour or 2 every week, maybe 3. nothing special hahaha. god this is a great way to escape life and relax! . i can't believe it's been a solid month of playing this. maybe i should think of getting a year subscription, it's much cheaper. i'm just going to do it, why not. i'm enjoying myself anyway. .. oh i'm so happy for the friends i've made here over the course of the past 3 months! i never thought i would be here for this long but it's such an amazing place, I just love it. the friends here are always in for a good laugh, and i love chatting with them and seeing them around. ... these drama people everywhere​, I don't understand them or what they want. such strange people, i think they should leave this place. you keep telling them to leave but they say they can't....so dumb. i guess some people just live to make a big drama story out of everything, even a virtual reality like this. .... oh this guy i met is so fun! i love him, oh god i do so much !! we have eloped, and now that i'm happily married after 6 months of being here this place is heaven! i don't come on the game often, but the 2 hours every day that i spend here really make me happy. and this group i'm part of! i love having a discord account to chat outside of 3dx to them! fuuuuunnnnnn!!!! hahahaha ..... i have so much free time now, i think i'll go hang out in 3dx some more. i get to see my husband and love him and cuddle him and he can take me to bed and...oh the sex, so good. i have found my little place in heaven i really have, and I can't believe it's already been 9 months. ...... my husband....my heart. what on Earth happend, it was such fun. he broke up with me, he got someone else ? what a shitty reason....this huurts. i better look for some comfort in my friends, that should get me back on my feet. i'll be fine. ....... oh this girl i met! she's great, i love her! my ex is such a loser, he can go off himself. but where are my friends going by the way? it feels like they're fading a little. and what happened to my real life, why didn't i hear anything from those friends anymore. luckily i have my discord and i can chat whenever i like. my friends are really the best ever! ........ my girlfriend had someone​ in real life. i feel so cheated but, it's just a game...right? this place isn't real i have a life outside of this....i think where are my friends? how long have i been spending 6 hours every day here. i can't believe it's ben a whole year. ......... i'm so lonely...i feel so sad. my life, where has it gone? my real life friends have relationships, my online friends are fading and my online relationship is dead. i have nothing....i'm so alone...help me. what day is it... Wednesday...when did i go to college for the last time...what did i do then. i came only to escape life...i guess i escaped. .......... help me. i feel so empty and alone. watching what people have in real life, what i'm missing. please help me...end this pain and lonelyness... or maybe i will.... be careful in your stay in 3dx. a virtual reality is not a game, and it can make you lose your self and lose track of what's real and important. if this is happening to you,don't think that you're​ the only one, because this is what happened to not only myself, but friends i have gotten to know as well. this place doesn't have a warning sign, but it should have one that you can see evey time before you log in. this place has made me depressed, brought me to tears, i picked up drinking from it and i won't lie, i have thoughts about suicide. it's a virtual reality, and it not real but god damnit it feels so real some times. because you can never forget, the place is digital, but the people behind the screen, are absolutely, 100% real. be careful. and if you even need to talk about something like this, send me a private message. if you know people that have problems like this, you can always send them to me to talk. maybe i can help them by sharing my own experiences. stay out of trouble everyone! and don't go down my path. love, alisonn.

i like the barbecue DJ *nods*

thabk you all for your wonderful messages! i have received a lot of private messages and your comments are lovely to read ^-^ i hope everyone is having a great time in 3dx!! and well giggle i can relate to the shock you must have felt when you saw 800 hours, as mine says i've spent over 2000 >.< but this is from more than a year though. like, a year and a half or something.

So.... i thought it'd be nice to write down my thoughts. and everything that's happened in 3dx. the good and bad things. and what 3dx is all about ! just going to share my experiences and see where it all ends up. i'll make titles to make sure you can sift through boring stuff you don't care about and only read the stuff you want to read INTRODUCTION: My name is alisonn (alice), and I've been on 3dx for a little over 3 years. i think the exact date i joined this place was 20th of august 2014 because it was somewhere close to my birthday i remember. I've also been known in 3dx as Nayomi, Naomie, and Mylana,. When i joined 3dx the only real reason i came over was because i thought it would be interesting to see what a place like this had to offer, and i love RP's so...1+1=2 i came here and wanted to RP with everyone. My first few months: The first few months were great, i found a hand full of people that liked to play around, i had fun and we chatted a little. nothing really interesting happened so after 3 months i took a break for 2 months, and later came back. at this point this place was a game to me and it held no value at all. What kept me playing were the constant updates and the fun people to chat to. My first relationship: the month i got together with my first ever GF in 3dx was in the month of may 2015. it was with a girl named Cindy, whom i'll never forget. she was a very sweet and kind soul that i'll always hold dear. she grew on me for our long conversations and the fact that we shared so many hobbies. it was truly a great match. sadly due to circumstances she left the game and i had to take a break from the game as well for a couple for weeks. when i came back sadly i had never seen her again. it wasn't a big problem for me, to me this place was still little more than a game, and i moved on in a matter of hours. The subtle change of importance: the summer vacation of 2015 hit me and when this happened i started to spend more and more time on this place. the more time i spent here the more people and their personalities started to grow on me. i started to see this as a problem so i made sure to never get truly close to anyone. i always was "wild" and acted this way to make sure i came across as unreachable in a way. This way i made sure that i didn't grow too attatached to the game or the people in it. but i did realize that this place might be more than just a game. The moment i realized this i even tried to stay away for as long as i could to see how it would affect me. when school started again in september i told myself i wouldn't return but it lasted 3 weeks before i just needed to go back. and from that moment it was clear to me that i was addicted to 3dx. Christmas 2015: around the time of november and december i started to really delve in to 3dx and make amazing friends. I was absolutely loving it and i was excited every time i logged in to chat with my friends. the more i came over the more "real" it got for me and the more attached i became to my friends. what i did is i put my RL self in to the avatar i was playing as, and that made everything real for me. the people i became friends with did the same and we connected on a very personal level. that is a very dangerous thing to do in a place like 3dx, but at this point i didn't realize that just yet, that came later. what mattered is that i still somewhere in the back of my mind knew that this place was only a game and i had RL and this separated. but it didn't last long. summer of 2016 (mylana, and alisonn) this is the point where everything changed completely for me. Because i felt like i had too many random friends on my main avi, i decided to make a new avi. this was Mylana. I only added my closest friends to this account, but i never told anyone else who Mylana was or where she came from. i also had an alt "alisonn" whom i used only for rp's and random sex. you could say alisonn was my slut account. With Mylana i made sure to only att true friends to my avi. the first person i met as Mylana was someone from my own country (the netherlands) and we talked for a while and he introduced me to another friend who was also dutch. these were my first 2 friends who i talked to from day to day. as the weeks passed by my older friends started to leave 3dx and new ones kept coming over. i still kept a barrier around myself trying not to let anyone get too close to me and i made sure that everyone saw me as someone who's always happy, never sad, always kind, warming, loving, and ready to help a friend whenever they need it. i did this pretty well and i made sure that i kept track of what RL is and what 3dx is, but it started to slip away from me due to a lack of activity in RL. the more i relaxed and the more free time i had the more i came over to 3dx and the more i hung out with my 3dx friends instead of my RL friends (not that i had those but still, you get the point). christmas 2016: oh boy....christmas. for some reason this was the time where i met my closest and best friends i could ever have hoped for. i won't name them without their permission of course but i think they know who they are when i say it was around Christmas. Mylana made the same mistake as the naomi's did. there were too many friends i didn't care about, and i spent so much time on alisonn just to slut around and made so many friends doing it, that alisonn simply turned out to be my main avi. it jsut happened like that for some reason, so i deleted Mylana and moved myself over to alisonn. sinclub became my go to place and i hung out there every single time i logged in to 3dx. it became like an escape from reality for me, something like a second home. i felt safe there, i knew people, i knew where i was, what i had, and i could do what i want, and say what i want. it was perfect....a little too perfect. i became so attached to that place and to 3dx that my guard started to fade away more and more. the people i cared for started to overtake my RL friends and things i cared for in RL. i stopped caring about school, i stopped caring about internships, it all became less important than my friends. all i wanted to do is hang out with them because i got attention that i always wanted in RL but never got. 3dx showed me what friendship truly is and how nice it feels to hang out and talk and do fun things together...to feel wanted as a friend. it's at this point i truly started to believe and see that this place is not a game. it's virtual, digital yes of course, but the way you treat it is what makes it a game or not. if you go around handing out colds to people then yes it might as well be a game, but if you talk, emotionally connect, and share intimacy with other individuals at the other end of the line, then no...no it's not a game. you're emotionally connecting with people whether it's through an avatar or not, these are real people, and you're really affecting them. not only mentally and emotionally, but if you get really attached, it can also be physically. people fall in love, cry, hate, laugh, and so on through this place. it's not a game, it's a utility to express yourself in a way you otherwise can't. this place called 3dx, is digital and fake, but the people behind the monitor are very real, and people don't underestimate how much emotional weight such a place can hold. the connections you make are the same as they are outside of the digital world. if not, there would be no drama. but i still had my RL to take care of, which was simply mandatory to survive and because it was just...school and work etc. not something you just give up on. i slowly fell in love with a girl named Lucy for a couple of months, but for some reason she had left 3dx not too long after. it was a shame but nothing i was extremely sad about graduation and the start of summer 2017: the downfall... In june of this year i graduated for the 1st half of my education and received my degree in the field of psychology. (which is ironic when you read the next part) It left me with 3 months of summer vacation, no plans, and only a few days of work a week. i came on 3dx one day and it basically became one long day of 3dx. i logged on and i had a great time at first, i spend hour after hour talking with friends, hanging out, sharing youtube video's and doing all these amazing things. the problem was i was doing these things 5 hours a day....then 6....7.....8 hours....9 ?!...10 !! and if you think i would realize that this was unhealthy and beginning to become a problem, you are gravely mistaken. i spent at least 8 hours every day on 3dx from june till the end of august. 3dx has at this point officially taken over everything that i had in my RL. what 3dx once was to me, is what my RL had become. one day i logged in and it seems i forgot to put my guard up, and i let someone slip past it (name= R) , breaking the guard completely, and taking me with it. i fell in love with someone who turned out to be exclusive to someone else, not stating this beofrehand and for that, i got heartbroken. for the first time ever in 3dx i was heartbroken and i shed a few tears over it. but i thought nothing much of it and the day after i was perfectly fine. 3dx love and drama : one after the other, people started to confess their love to me. in total i can name 11 people that have confessed to me that they wanted to be with me and i had to reject each and every one of them, because i was always going for someone else. i wanted to be with another person not much longer after R. his name was V. for a long time we played games together, hung out every day and became really close. he showed me about Telegram and we connected outside of 3dx, and this was great! but because of someone else i became very jealous and everything just went to shit. things went so bad that for 2 full weeks, i was sick, throwing up, losing weight, not eating, not sleeping, having nightmares, and much more nonsense. I became physically unwell over 3dx. yet still i didn't realize that this was going way way way too far. while this was happening someone named K cared for me for a long time. someone named A was chasing me for months arleady and i finally gave in and we got together. but not long after we broke up because of RL issues and ofcourse this made me break down in tears again. then i fell for K and i fought as hard as i possibly could for this person. she made me the happiest person ever, showed me what it truly means to be loved, and my god was i happy. if you could see the ecstasy with which i wrote to her you'd have understood. we got together and for the most stupid mistake we broke up shortly after. i gained the same feeling as i did with V and starter feeling the need to throw up, not eat, and so on. again, i got physically sick over 3dx, but i still kept spending 5,6,7,8 hours a day on there. the conclusion: because i've spent so much time on this place it consumed my entire life and it became my RL. because of this my life has become a confusing mess of misplaced emotions and that's very bad. i feel the need to stay far far away from this place, to make sure i get myself straight again before it ruins me completely. what i have learned in a very hard and shitty way, is that 3dx is a very dangerous place. you have to be careful not to get sucked in to it too much and when you do, be very very careful who you get attached to. because it can show you beautiful things and take it all away the same day. 3dx is not a toy, it's not a game, it's something very serious, nearly as addictive as a drug, and you need to treat is with caution. it's okay to have fun there, and it's perfectly fine to fall in love and such, just be careful it doesn't consume you. limit yourself in time that you spend there. because it has caused me to go insane for a long time. i have cried so many tears over the loss of my love and my happiness, i couldn't begin to explain how painful the past 3/4 months have been. they were a constant agony with a glimmer of hope and happiness at the end that just faded away as soon as you grab it in the palm of your hand. i'm recovering just fine now, still slightly sad about the events that have happened but recovering very well. HELP: if you need to write down your thoughts as i have, or need someone to talk to, you can always come to me. send me a PM, and i will try to reply to it if i can. or send me a PM in 3dx if i'm around, i should be for another month at least. if you know anyone that has issues similar to anything related to this story (love, friendship, addiction to 3dx, etc) you can also tell them to pm me. i really do like helping people if i can, i wish everyone to be happy, and i hope through sharing my story, i can let people know they're not alone in this world. remember, alice is here for you if you need her<3 have a nice day everyone. <3 ! i love you all.

i have written a short blog here but due to circumstances i have deleted it. the person involved got hurt by it and i feel like an absolute asshole for writing it. i'm sorry.

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