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5 hours ago, Derai said:

That’s a good point actually Ana. 
I never ever hear folks complain or even talk about that. 
It’s always the “OMG a guy plays a girl character!”

But never “OMG that girl plays a guy character!”

Interesting really. 

I had this question for one of these guys I was debating with.  "How do you know it isn't a girl that plays as a girl, and also a boy?"  He had no answer other than "Only guys do that."  Huh?

I get it, I enjoy spending time with women in game immensely as anyone.  And when the vibe and moment is right, the virtual sex is amazing.  However, as in real life, by that point you have  had to put some trust in yourself and your partner that you both are enjoying the other as is.  If you still question your partner's gender and/or sexual identity?  Perhaps masturbating to porn instead would be a better outlet.   

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We are all guys until we deliver solid proof. Now the definition of solid proof in 3DX.

 

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Guy: Post a pic of yourself
Girl: Done
Guy: I cant see it properly you are wearing clothes. Could be a boy underneath
Girl: *removes some cloth*
Guy: Could be pic of your sister. I need to talk to you on Voice
Girl: *activates voice on discord*
Guy: I bet you using voice changer. I need to see you on cam
Girl: *activates cam*
Guy: Ehhhh maybe you are a transgender. Drop your pants so I can cleary see you are a girl
Girl: *drops pants and panties*
Guy: Maybe you are Post-OP Transgender...

Its so dumb it hurts... hence the proof needs to stop. You dont believe it? Might as well f... off

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3 minutes ago, Nikki said:

We are all guys until we deliver solid proof. Now the definition of solid proof in 3DX.

 

Its so dumb it hurts... hence the proof needs to stop. You dont believe it? Might as well f... off

Yeaaah, this is sadly to true...
And to be honest? It's not just Online is it?
Burden of proof is always with Women, Trans or otherwise.

Oh something upsetting happened to you? Prove it.
Oh you call yourself X? Prove it!
Oh you think you have rights? Prove it!

Sigh...

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52 minutes ago, JackPine said:

Not to derail Derai's thread (Derail... Derai.... coincidence? :P ) much more, since it is her diary after all, but who ever said I behave?  🙃

I just have read it all. I am not about to spoil her diary. I agree with People here. Brains are important. 

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Felt energetic and hyper all day, stuck at work, no stimulation.
But my thoughts raced, and fluttered, and my heart felt like it would burst with all the energy contained within. 

I was happy. Pure and simple.

Minor annoyances got swept aside by my exuberance and happiness.

It was a good day.

 

 

Then my best friend found out they have cancer.

 

 

 

Sometimes, the world isn't fair.

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3 hours ago, Talon Queenz said:

stop making useless threads no one gives a shit about. never have i ever in my entire existence met a biological female named derai what ever the flipping bat shit that even means you're a dude pretending - stop - you will never be a biological or trans female get outta here 

Haters gonna hate~
That’s how it goes no?

Oh and you gave a shit, otherwise you wouldn’t have posted~
 

Checkmate~

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12 minutes ago, Talon Queenz said:

maybe if you stopped gay and trans bashing for 1 day i see your gay buddy jackpine is gay for your butthole maybe take him as an invite? 

Way ahead of you, whoever you are.  But your Jackpine ain't the Jackpine I know.

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On 2/8/2021 at 5:46 AM, JackPine said:

I have spoken to a few guys who have warned me of women not being female.  Observing how these guys act in game and various discord groups?  I think its more a coping mechanism to dealing with rejection or being challenged intellectually by a female.  I could be wrong too, but their opinion carries little weight with me.

Envy. They see you having a partner, or just a female friend and try to sway your trust in them by saying this. If he can't get them then it's easier to think they're guys anyway.

They even might be.

This is why I generally don't give a damn about who's who in this game. It's online, there's no way of knowing. I am sure I have been with "girls" in 3DX who aren't really girls in real. Some I even realized later. Have it ever bothered me? Not at all. If the person's fun to be with or around then I'm game, even if they have a male avatar. Who cares? The whole notion of 3DX is living out a fantasy. It is a layer that lets reality leak through only as much as the users want. If you use this game you accept that reality might not be what you see there. But again, we have no real business with each other's realities so in short, who cares. If we both have a great time then that's what matters.

(I'm lttp I know, story of my life.)

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1 hour ago, GaborX said:

Envy. They see you having a partner, or just a female friend and try to sway your trust in them by saying this. If he can't get them then it's easier to think they're guys anyway.

They even might be.

This is why I generally don't give a damn about who's who in this game. It's online, there's no way of knowing. I am sure I have been with "girls" in 3DX who aren't really girls in real. Some I even realized later. Have it ever bothered me? Not at all. If the person's fun to be with or around then I'm game, even if they have a male avatar. Who cares? The whole notion of 3DX is living out a fantasy. It is a layer that lets reality leak through only as much as the users want. If you use this game you accept that reality might not be what you see there. But again, we have no real business with each other's realities so in short, who cares. If we both have a great time then that's what matters.

(I'm lttp I know, story of my life.)

Hey Gabor!

Your words up there reminded me of something I wanted to ask.
You and @JackPine might be the first to give me a 'guys' perspective of this.

But in talking to my male coworkers over the years, one thing sometimes struck me as odd.
They would allude to having watched Porn with other guys present.
Now my thoughts about that in relation to 3DX is to ask; How is watching porn together with another guy, any different then playing a Porn Game, together?
I mean if we go for the Silent Pose hoppers, if both players are Male behind the screen, it's no different from them watching Porn together, is it? (Descriptive Players might get tricky due to the 1st person / 3rd person thing in writing)
Or am I thinking down the wrong track here?

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1 hour ago, Derai said:

Hey Gabor!

Your words up there reminded me of something I wanted to ask.
You and @JackPine might be the first to give me a 'guys' perspective of this.

But in talking to my male coworkers over the years, one thing sometimes struck me as odd.
They would allude to having watched Porn with other guys present.
Now my thoughts about that in relation to 3DX is to ask; How is watching porn together with another guy, any different then playing a Porn Game, together?
I mean if we go for the Silent Pose hoppers, if both players are Male behind the screen, it's no different from them watching Porn together, is it? (Descriptive Players might get tricky due to the 1st person / 3rd person thing in writing)
Or am I thinking down the wrong track here?

One thing I really admire about you, Dee, is the ability to get me to think.  And with my brain, that is not an easy thing to do!  

I can see your point here when it comes to those that play here mainly as a way to insert themselves into a porn video. I think this can include females as well.  At this level it is mainly visual stimuli for themselves, so who is on the other end watching their own scene play out should not be that important.

Personally, I find little satisfaction with that, at least in game.  In this case, I won't waste anyone's time and can go masturbate to porn.

When immersing myself in game, there are so many elements around the act of sex that has me hooked here.  The warm feeling welling up in the chest when I see a friend enter the room, the nervous energy when striking up the nerve to approach a new person that I find attractive, and their profile enticing me to know more.  The enjoyment in casual conversation that turns to a knowing smile, a flirtatious wink. And when the seduction is complete, a descriptive encounter of giving, not just taking pleasure in that moment.  This doesn't happen with just a set of pixels and a computer algorithm.  It required at least two human beings using their collective minds to get to this delicious point, not just the avatars on their screens.

It shouldn't in the end matter who is really who, given both parties enjoyed each other.  However, I do crave that connection with the people I spend time with in this way, and some semblance of who they are is formed in my head.  I would hope it is somewhat correct.  Perhaps that is not the best way to play here, but I am who I am.

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The main difference between watching porn with another guy and interacting with another guy in 3dx is the interactivity and the more immersive self-insertion of the latter. @JackPine put it more eloquently than i could hope to, but the back and forth between two people, the flirting, the emotional bond that forms however briefly, the pillow talk afterwards, is not something that can be achieved by watching porn (unless it's some cam-show I suppose).

My own experience of watching porn with another guy present consists of not taking your eyes off the screen for an instant lest you accidentally glance at the other guy, occasionally mumbling something to the effect of "Niiice", reaching over and assisting with the handjob, followed by getting on your knees in front of him and giving head, followed by never talking about the experience again, before coming over next weekend to do it all over again :P Granted, my own experience might differ from others.

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2 hours ago, Derai said:

Hey Gabor!

Your words up there reminded me of something I wanted to ask.
You and @JackPine might be the first to give me a 'guys' perspective of this.

But in talking to my male coworkers over the years, one thing sometimes struck me as odd.
They would allude to having watched Porn with other guys present.
Now my thoughts about that in relation to 3DX is to ask; How is watching porn together with another guy, any different then playing a Porn Game, together?
I mean if we go for the Silent Pose hoppers, if both players are Male behind the screen, it's no different from them watching Porn together, is it? (Descriptive Players might get tricky due to the 1st person / 3rd person thing in writing)
Or am I thinking down the wrong track here?

Watching porn together is an in-person activity, if I interpret your question correctly. And that's different than playing a game.

Playing 3DX is fantasy. For me, it involves the avatars, which are a substitute for the physical aspect of sex, and the chat, which is the mental aspect (making things deliberately simple here). The visuals of 3DX are good enough so that everyone's sexy and perfect looking, so even if it's a guy, or a male-operated female avi, what I see on screen is most certainly attractive. And if this is paired with a fun personality then I don't care who's really on the other side.

Watching porn would be different because the partner whom I watch with would have no effect on what happens or what's on screen. It's passive. So if I pair with someone for a passive activity then there's no fantasy layer to hide us. And I'm not really interested in a real male to discuss my wanking session with.

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So here we are again. 
Been an eventful few days, good, bad and everything in between. 
 

The good; Had a nice long weekend and during this weekend ran into one of my more promiscuous friends who invited me into several group sex sessions. 
Notable quotes: “Always fun to see you suck dick Dee” “You’re a force of nature when you are this horny” “Hey! Don’t break him!” “Oh Bronzed Goddes! Yes right there!”

 

The Bad; A friend of mine who is having a hard time, caused a bit of a ‘diplomatic’ incident between the Divas and a group we’re friends with. And I spent half a day in damage control mode to smooth ruffled feathers and play mediator. 
One notable quote from that; “You’re in the wrong job Derai. You are good at this.”

 

The everything in between; Wandering around trying to get my mind of things, and constantly being poked by people about the Bad above, after it was solved already. 
But also having friends to vent at, to hear me bitch and moan(in the unfun way)

And not judge. 
 

All in all though, I came out of the weekend with a net positive mood wise. 
So yay!

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Back to more thoughtful thoughts. 
 

Friendship is like a rope. 
It tethers you to people and secures you in the world. 
 

You have to trust this rope, because if you don’t and keep checking it, or keep tugging on it, you might wear it thin. 
And you might find that right when you need it the most, when you are falling deeply. The rope breaks. 
 

On the other hand you can’t just take it for granted either, because then the same thing might happen because it snaps or snags on something you never saw coming. 
 

Lastly though, while this rope can be used to lift others up, or catch them when they fall. 
There is no shame in sometimes cutting the rope yourself. 
It might be that whoever it’s attached to is dragging you down, or even up into places you are not comfortable with. 
Maybe the rope has become entangled around you and you chafe to be free again. 
All of these are valid, all of that is okay. 
Just don’t string people along. 

 

Anyway, just a thought. 
Y’all be safe, stay warm and take care!

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Another Wednesday reached. 
And the pendulum of life is squarely on the darker side of its swing. 
My days describable with a single word. 
 

‘Meh’

All is not bland though. 
Made some new friends. 
Although, friends might be hasty. 
I met some new people, they’re nice, friendly and fun. 
But time will tell if they can become friends. 
Specially with my current mood.
 

Always hard to find the balance.
If people meet me in my Hyper, Happy and Horny state, they get disappointed when the Darker Depressed Derai rears her head. 
 

But those that meet me in my darker days, might get scared away by the intensity of my lighter moods. 
 

Never easy.
But that’s life I suppose. 
 

Anyway, just a thought.
Stay safe out there! 

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One can't truly appreciate the light and warmth of a bright sunny day, unless one hasn't had to push through a dark and dreary day.  So throw on your rubber boots, I got the umbrella.  The sun will be shining soon. 

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11 hours ago, JackPine said:

One can't truly appreciate the light and warmth of a bright sunny day, unless one hasn't had to push through a dark and dreary day.  So throw on your rubber boots, I got the umbrella.  The sun will be shining soon. 

Haven't you gotten this backwards Buddy?
It's usually the dude that puts on the rubber... Oh wait...
Boots...
My bad!

But also... Hey!
I do get wet, but not to THAT degree!
:P🤣❤️

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8 minutes ago, Derai said:

Haven't you gotten this backwards Buddy?
It's usually the dude that puts on the rubber... Oh wait...
Boots...
My bad!

But also... Hey!
I do get wet, but not to THAT degree!
:P🤣❤️

In that case, queue the rain and let's go play in the puddle until we are both soaked.  Read into that what you may! :P

 

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