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  1. Ok, so you've got here. Maybe some of you guessed, maybe not. I've cried my eyes out over this, although I don't expect anyone to forgive/believe me. Here goes nothing, and this is really hard and I apologise so much to people I know I'm going to really hurt badly. I am a 39yo Scottish male. Please keep reading as I want to at least try explain, and no I don't expect forgiveness or anything. I expect people will just put me down and talk crap and will never understand. I have suffered depression/anxiety/social anxiety disorder for around the last 10 or so years. Most of my life has been full of horrible people (except the closest people to me, my parents and my brothers and other family). I've never had any true friends, any I did have buggered off, especially when they found out I have mental health issues. I haven't been in a relationship for at least 15 years and even then she went behind my back and I caught her sleeping with her "best friend". You can probably guess how that went/made me feel. I've always been shy and quiet and found it hard to make friends/talk to people, but this shitty illness makes it even harder. I've pretty much lost my late 20's and all my 30's to this horrendous illness that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, or even the people that are going to probably write nasty comments after they've read this (if you've even got this far). I've ended up in hospital once, it would have been twice, but the first time they had no beds and I basically had to "get on with it". The second time I broke down massively and no longer wanted to be alive. I was under watch especially the first 3 or 4 days, wasn't allowed earphones, my electric shaver or anything I could potentially use to rid the world of me. To try and cut what's a long story, I found this game and in hindsight wish to fuck I'd been honest since the start, unlike 60-80% of people here. It's a form of escapism from reality, though I guess this place is for most people. I never meant to hurt anyone but I know I have for definite now. I'm so painfully lonely it near enough hurts. Yes, I still live with my parents, maybe a good thing, maybe bad. I know without them I wouldn't be sitting here or anywhere. I'd be 6ft under with "Died from Suicide/Depression" written on my gravestone. I don't expect anyone to understand or forgive me. If you do, you are an amazing person that deserves so much good in their life. Unfortunately I've had pretty much the opposite in mine. Again, I'm sorry to people I've hurt now. You know who you are, you might even comment on this or hate me, and I don't blame you. This has taken a while to write coz I keep breaking down. I feel so useless and worthless and angry at myself. Like the late John Candy said in a film once "When am I ever going to wake up?" If you've read this far thank you so much. If you understand, you're a far better person than I can hope to be. I'm unsure if I'll be back as me. I doubt anyone wants me to even stay. Again and I will never be able to say it enough or make up for it, I am truly, deeply sorry. So there you have it, feel free to start shit, not sure I care anymore.
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