Nektar

As someone who was suicidal back in 2019 all I can do is send my best vibes and positive energy your way, Derai.

I really like this song. It's fucking wild!

Thanks, Silvio When I'm online next time, I'll be sure to keep my eyes open for you ^^ And yes, I am coming back, one step at a time. Today was the first good day in a few weeks, and hopefully a sign of things to come

I used to say 2020 really was my year. New house, new job, new exiting stuff happening in my life. Looks like in 2021 there's going to be a reckoning. I've been sitting here, staring at the screen for probably ten minutes now, trying to figure out what to say and share, at the same time thinking I shouldn't. Because I don't want to fish for sympathy, but at the same time I don't want to go on a vague-posting spree. To sum it up, things are bad irl right now, and I don't see them changing any time soon. I don't know what this means about my presence in game yet. Either I'm going to go on a manic spree of love and lust, or I'm going to sink into a quagmire of despair. Giggity.

Bleh, where do these people come from? I met a person like that on here a while back who basically wanted me to modify my avatar, my behavior, my opinions, until they suited their expectations of what a proper partner was. Like, dude, go make an alt account and have fun marrying your ideal self. Clearly you're not looking for an actual person to be with.

Ha! The guy sounds like a bit of a psycho "Come over to my death trap. Did i say death trap? I meant apartment! I'm a nice guy you fucking cunt!"

Well, it finally happened. I got burned out from work and now I'm on sick leave for the next three weeks. I suck.

You can only be in so many places at once, Derai, and only divide your attention between a finite number of people at a time. I've experienced what you're describing, and yeah it's never fun to feel like you're neglecting someone in favor of someone else, but at the end of it all that's the choice we have to make. You shouldn't feel guilty about it. I try to mitigate this somewhat by scheduling "dates" with my friends, so that I keep in touch with them. It sounds rigid when put like that, but it's more like "hey, can we hang out tomorrow?" and not "I have a time slot between 8 and 9 PM where I can fit you in." Only thing I don't really do is try and invite friends to meet each other. I just get the feeling that some of my different friends wouldn't play well together, so I don't extend invites. I will usually accept an invite though, unless I'm occupied.

Oh yes I remember that evening. I was quite consumed in PMs so no wonder I missed you and Cicely there I did meet C at the Wednesday truth or dare. Your waifu is an evil genius ^^

Wait wait wait, you two were at Subspace?! I feel like I'm missing out Also, you're supposed to be an innocent, blushing bride, Piney! Innocent!

Glooooooves!

You cheeky monkey ^^

I'm not gonna lie, this would make my day

Just when it seemed I was in for a new spell of melancholy a dear friend of mine showed up unexpectedly in game to remind me why I'm the biggest whore on 3dx ^^ Thanks, lover! You know who you are

If you're crossing the sound A God-forsaken eve Would you please bring a message To someone I hold dear Give her my best And tell her then That I've always been proud to Call her my friend Tell her some of those days we shared together Were some of the best I ever had And tell her I'm sorry For all the faults that came But that none of them were meant As some sort of of cruelty Tell tell tell Tell her those things for me

So, i just broke off something beautiful before it could blossom into something perfect. It might have been the right thing to do, but it still leaves me feeling like an awful person. This was what I was talking about earlier when I spoke about making the same mistakes. I know my heart must seem like a cold and frozen lump. Please whoever reads this, tell him its nothing further from the truth. It's just that if I'd have given all that he'd have wanted None of those things he'd fallen in love with would have been there in the end Someone please tell him this from me

Just please please please be careful so you don't accidentally post a 3dx message in a work colleague chat

I feel like I am repeating all the same mistakes I've done before. Don't fall for someone, and don't have them fall for you. Why do I do this?

Filing this information away for a rainy day ^^

Gothy stuff and GLOVES

Looking good, Derai ^^

So, the idea was that i would take the weekend to rest, recuperate and reflect on last Friday night's debauchery. Well, looks like I'm well rested. This week has been a flurry of new sexual partners, new friendships, new adventures! Lately I've been very closed off from people on 3dx, sticking to my own corner like a wallflower, only hanging out with a select few friends and mostly been going through the motions. I don't know what happened, but suddenly I'm being courted left and right, I'm hitting on and scoring more often than not. It's like I'm back to my first days in here! I'm going to make the most of it! Beware, 3dx. Something faggy this way comes