It has been 3 beautiful years.  So many said they had fears.

Yet I knew from the moment I saw your face no one would ever keep your pace.

You stole me complete, he had no prayer to compete.

You were just supposed to be some fun, but I could not deny our passion.

We both swore we would never wed. Why would we when we break the bed?

16 hour dates went so fast. No matter what we did we had a blast.

Leaving you was painful if even for an hour. It was only you I wished to devour.

The stars had it planned I am sure as only fate could have laid me on your plate.

Fate knew your eyes, your touch, your voice, would surely give me no real choice.

For only your laughter and depth could have me loving you more than breath.

I would not change a day in the years since we met. Not a day of them would I choose to forget.

Thank you for every moment. Thank you for every encouragement.

It is an honor to stand at your side. It's been and continues to be an amazing ride!

Always and in all ways, Forever and a day, your B.

Jersey playing his guitar on his birthday

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It's been a fabulous two years! You stole my heart in those very early days and own it still. From that first night on the beach (Dated 6/18/2018) our first dance (Dated 6/18/2020) and our first kiss (Dated 6/19/2018) my life has never been the same. Thank you for all the laughter, all the joy, the constant support and guidance, all the love and all the squirms. It has been quite the journey and I would not change a thing. I thank God, and 3DX every day for you, for US and our bubble.

I look forward to what the future holds for us.

I love you baby. Always. And in All Ways.

B,   my woman, my wife and my amazing lover.  I chose her then, I chose her yesterday,  I choose her today and I will choose her tomorrow and the days after that, and after that.

She is mine.

B, (SusanLouise)  My woman, my wife and my amazing lover.  I chose her then, I chose her yesterday,  I choose her today and I will choose her tomorrow and the days after that, and after that.

She is mine.

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Nothing more toxic…

HATE is a cancer we make

A killer of souls

Self-inflicted Hell

Infecting everything

Corrupting… lifeforce

Yet… we’re in control

Cancer of our creation  

Owner of its cure

Always easier said though… than done. I’m no exception, not immune to its infection. Guilty of harboring this poison within my heart, feeding it, letting it grow until robbed of my fun here. And for what? Nothing of importance.

I once enjoyed this Forum; contributing, participating and enjoying all the eye candy. Sure, I didn’t much like some of the Forum drama but learned to “look away” along with avoiding the local Bullies. But these past months… watching LIKES being exploited and corrupted pushed me over my edge.

Though I couldn’t care less about the Leaderboard… I couldn’t let go of this charade in deception, having little tolerance for cheaters, liars or deceivers. Ironic, how it’s often our strengths and unwavering convictions that turn on their Master, edging us to our DARK side. Turning me into something… NOT me.

My inner battle rages... struggling to let it go… compulsions making it hard. But trying to stop my freefall, refusing to succumb to demons of my creation. Reminding myself what is truly important and The Reason i come here… much too important to forsake.

Shame on ME... any TIME is too precious to waste on hate. 

Anonymity on the forums is a (relatively) new thing, I guess.  It also translates into no one ever actually logging in unless they are partaking in the endless like-a-thon or messaging someone.

Lurker heaven....

I HAVE DECIDED IT JUST ISN'T FUN WITHOUT THE ROSE AND I CAN'T BE MYSELF BECAUSE PEOPLE DECIDED TO BE ALL DRAMATIC AND PLAY GAMES. I TRULY DON'T KNOW HOW I PISSED ANYONE OFF, BUT SUCH IS LIFE, FUCK IT.

THAT SAID, I WILL SAVE EVERYONE THE ISSUE OF IGNORING ME AND SHALL JUST BECOME A BUILDER. 

SOCIALIZING JUST ISN'T FUN BECAUSE PEOPLE I THOUGHT WERE FRIENDS WERE TAKERS AND WHEN THE ROSES STOPPED.... SO DID ANY CIVILITY. 

THE DRAMA LAMAS HAVE WON... I TRULY HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY.

I WILL NO LONGER BE FREELY GIVING ROSES OUT. TOO MANY PEOPLE MADE IT A NEGATIVE THING. NO THEY WERE NOT "GIVEN OUT OF DESPERATION FOR ATTENTION", NO THEY WERE NOT GIVEN OUT BECAUSE "I EXPECTED SEX", THEY WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE A "MANDATORY " THING WHERE PEOPLE FELT I OWED THEM A ROSE, BUT ONCE GIVEN REFUSED TO TALK TO ME OR EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE MY EXISTENCE IF I SAID HI (THAT IS NOT ASKING FOR ATTENTION, THAT IS EXPECTING COMMON DECENCY AND RESPECT.)  

I DID IT FOR ONE REASON AND AS HARD AS THAT MAY BE TO BELIEVE THAT REASON IS THE TRUTH. ALL I WANTED WAS A SMILE AND FOR THE RECIPIENT TO FEEL SPECIAL AND TO SEE SOMEONE CARED. I FEEL BAD THAT PEOPLE CHOSE TO MAKE IT SUCH A NEGATIVE AND PUT ME IN SUCH AN ATTITUDE THAT I NO LONGER FEEL THEY WERE APPRECIATED FOR THE REASON I GAVE THEM, TO MANY IT BECAME A JOKE AND PERHAPS IT WAS MY FAULT.

ANYWAY, IT IS WHAT IT IS AND I APOLOGIZE TO THE PEOPLE THAT TRULY ENJOYED THEM AND LOOKED FORWARD TO GETTING THEM.

I'M JUST NOT GOING TO LIVE WITH THE DRAMA OF HAVING TO EXPLAIN WHAT I FELT WAS A NOBLE AND KIND GESTURE.

Enjoy it as we are!!  Make the best of it!  V and I are learning German together! What are you all doing?

~smiles~ and winks...

Dark humor for dark days.  Feel free to add to the list.

To my amazing husband...love you baby

You feed my soul, from deep down within

When I think you've given all baby, you start all over again.
You warm my heart, like nobody before.
it's you that I adore baby
Just when I thought I could not love you anymore.
 

Love that twinkle in his eye when he looks at me like this.

Dancing close with my amazing husband while listening to the Celebration of Life for our dear friend Woody.

"We were blessed to know the man Lefty was both in and out of game. He was a man of great integrity with a heart that endured pain in silence. He had a spirit we should all try to emulate. He often took the backseat but was quite capable of driving when he wanted to. He was kind and funny with a strong sense of right and wrong, often championing his close friends. And he loved his country music. We are proud to have known him and am proud he was our friend. We will miss him. God Bless you Lefty. With much love and sorrowful hearts, Vaughan and Brandi"