Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 5, 2019 Share Posted June 5, 2019 Still don’t understand…These feelings I have for YOUOnly…. they ARE real ☙𝔼𝕩❧, Zoë and Rodin 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 11, 2019 Share Posted June 11, 2019 She is my LadyOwner of my submissionI’m her precious heart He is my DaddyOwner of my perversionI’m his twisted slut Each feeds the otherEach owning me equallyInseparable Zoë, Rodin and Lady_Andrea 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 14, 2019 Share Posted June 14, 2019 Just an acquaintance….Whose memory was fadingAs our lives march on Until hearing newsOf her passing at 32Losing to Cancer Just an acquaintance?The heart feels differentlyUnable to lie An inspiration…Lover of life and peopleFighter to the end. Zoë, SusanLouisa, Lady_Andrea and 1 other 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 21, 2019 Share Posted June 21, 2019 Problem with "better"Much like “more”… they never lastReplaced by their clones When looking ahead…Wanting for what we don’t haveWe lose what we do It’s NOT what we haveThat will bring us happinessBut what we enjoy I prefer the NOWGiving it full attentionAppreciating Rodin and Zoë 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 26, 2019 Share Posted June 26, 2019 Finally got it… That which I longed to hearMy bronze feels like gold Gibberish to mostUnimportant to the restBut precious to me Those two syllables...Forever defining USi am her Ma Ma Lady_Andrea, SusanLouisa, Zoë and 1 other 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted June 29, 2019 Share Posted June 29, 2019 Past, Present, Future…Where dreams become memoriesOurs but a moment Dream of the FutureAll the possibilitiesExpectations soar Live in the presentWhere dreams meet realityOurs to reconcile Molded by the PastShaped by Present’s decisionsChanging our Future Makes us who we are….. MeiLing, ☙𝔼𝕩❧, Rodin and 1 other 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 9, 2019 Share Posted July 9, 2019 LOVE… never changesUnwilling to compromiseBeyond logics reach It’s touch… addictiveIt’s bite… debilitatingConceding to none It can’t be controlledAnd comes with no guaranteesYet… Priceless to me MeiLing, SusanLouisa, Zoë and 1 other 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 9, 2019 Share Posted July 9, 2019 "I am serious about the NO “Likes”… this is MY thread. MY words, MY opine. NOW become... the only original words remaining from this posts past. “Mean what I say – Say what I mean” the motto of a trusted friend from another world… no longer with us. Also, the bond between us. I see LIKES where they do NOT belong. Where I asked them NOT to side. Yet here they are… they didn’t listen, had no respect. Now forcing me to retract a “Pieces of Kait” for the first ever time. Thank YOU… Not sarcastically, but from my HEART. Gifting me a way to redeem my spirit, purge this cancer from my vault, without sacrificing ME. Thank YOU, again… Though few eyes watch over this thread, THIS space is priceless to me. My mirror… if it breaks, I am broken. There is a first time for ALL things… what WE have to decide is will there be another. Till this point my sanctuary has gone untouched… but that changes today. Deleting insinuating words based on ugly thoughts filled with assumptions, misguided facts. Letting my feelings for one, jade my thoughts unfairly of another. The first… reminding me of my mistake, and what matters. Thank YOU too, Pandorra I am many things, perfect NOT one of them. Easy for me to remember making it easy for me to repent. Ask for understanding, forgiveness… when “good” intentions go astray. Feelings distorting facts. I suspect few eyes saw my cancer… and fewer this edit, this confession. But that’s OK… not intended for anybody but ME. AND, those who care enough to look. Haiku deleted / Post edited / July 15th... along with its baggage, internal conflict. Rodin and SusanLouisa 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 10, 2019 Share Posted July 10, 2019 Instead of letting Harley out again… she really wants to rip that despicable, child molesting, rich, entitled smug FUCK Jeffrey Epstein a new asshole, But… keeping her pacified atm with promises that KARMA is going to do it for her… with some help of those prison boys who like invading tight places. Hope he lives a LONG life in prison. Hear they really have a hatred for those that abuse children n pets. Hmm, who knew? Anywho, I want to get back to… LOVE, LUST, SILLY n FUN. Keeping my heart smiling n mind quiet today. Within Heartaches depthsLies the essence of its truth Exposing your LOVE Whether right or wrongIt won’t make a differenceLOVE plays by NO rules Taking what it wantsCan’t be tamed, owned or takenOnly be given Rodin, Zoë and SusanLouisa 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady_Andrea Posted July 14, 2019 Share Posted July 14, 2019 Ma Vhenan, ma vhenas Kaitlyn1989 and Rodin 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 14, 2019 Share Posted July 14, 2019 Heaven…. seven days in a row, twice on Sunday Rodin, Zoë and Lady_Andrea 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 16, 2019 Share Posted July 16, 2019 From nervous beginnings… my first “real” back to work day, to soaring… leaving those jitters behind, sharing an 8th day in a row with Andrea, even if only for hugs, a kiss n some banter. A record for us, our RLs unexpectedly cooperative. Then on to visit Achat’s forum…checking in on our F1 race team… see if we won. Nope, somethings never change... even when you enter half the drivers o well, lucky in love, NOT chance. At that point… my day would have ended high on top of that ride, wearing the same Sunday morning smile. But when visiting... always look for new life within what was once a vibrant forum, like this, before it began to wither. There it was, my day spoiler… the one that would bring me down to earth. hmmm, such is life… a rollercoaster outta our control. First it was V’s beautiful and heartfelt RIP tribute. reminding me, once two hearts share such a connection… there will always be feelings. They made fade, you may be able to move on... but they never disappear. Now part of you. Then Cassianna’s… words steeped in feelings, her loss greater than mine. The evidence in each syllable. *hugz* CassiTouching me... both of you testing my feelings. Compelling me to write, share too. Right or Wrong. Sarah, been so long since you disappeared from my friends list… your words from my inbox. Long gone. Knowing you had your RL challenges but thinking you had moved on to another world… as so many before, as we did. Zoerink becoming my only link… keeping me informed of you without betraying your privacy. Like you ,,, Zoerink words of honor. But he too has disappeared, leaving me in the dark. Until now. First Woody, now you Sarah…. both forever gone... unexplained silence leading to bad news. It matters not what world you lose a friend, close or not. You either care, or don’t. I DO.Leaving me emotional, spiritual… feeling saddened but hopeful n happy. Sarah... I’m sadden… can no longer look forward to that day you pop back up in my friends list. A day we would catch up and tell you all bout Ryliegh…*smiles* the new owner of my heart. Let you know that an “open” marriage can work for us “all or nothing girls”… Andrea n I still lost in each other, approaching 3 years. Your wedding artwork shares a home with Andrea's Nesting Tree poem... safely tucked away in her forum profile. Reminding me of you every time I visit. Not only saddened for my loss… but all those who knew you better than I… there loss more than my sadness. I am hopeful… you passed quickly without anxiety or pain. Whisked from one ending into another beginning… That you made peace with yourself and with those who you held in your heart regardless of world. Passing with positive energy into the next. Wishing it’s ALL that you dreamed. I’m happy… you are comfortable, no longer in pain, your spirit now freed from its shackles, able to soar like the creative soul you are. Ready to take on the next adventure as fearless as this last… though perhaps managing to keep just a bit of wisdom along the way, accepting shades of grey into your black n white. Hmm, your stubbornness only rivaled by your virtues, convictions and expectations of those you held closest. Not easily impressed. Just like Woody. I will remember YOU… fondly, with plenty of triggers to remind me the most important in Andrea’s profile and the halls of Achat’s forum… where YOU will live forever. That’s all I got tonight, drained… share more memories perhaps tomorrow. I still have a morning treat to write for my Lady… and it’s getting late. Talk to you again Sarah… soon. You will be missed... as are all spirits that make this a better world. Briana, Rodin, SusanLouisa and 2 others 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 16, 2019 Share Posted July 16, 2019 Another friend goneAs unexpected as… firstNo time for Goodbyes A gifted artistDemanding but caring soulLady of her word Many knew OF youOnly few got to know YOUHappy to be ONE Not an easy friendYour standards set high for usYour bar… unyielding Easy on strangersTougher on those held closestYou expected more Just like Auswoody…Right or wrong… “Mean what you say”And.. “Say what you mean.” Even when it hurtPrisoner of convictions…As I am my Heart Different as we wereWe were very much the sameIn ways that mattered All or nothing waysGetting the better of usBut not breaking us Wherever you goI hope it’s all you have dreamtKarma will be kind Free of your shacklesSpread your wings n fly awayLeaving us behind. Got a piece of YOULocked in my LADY’s profileNext to…. Nesting Tree Will Miss YOU todayRemember YOU tomorrowReturning my smile Briana, Rodin, SusanLouisa and 2 others 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 18, 2019 Share Posted July 18, 2019 Ashamed… Let us not forgetHow we got… this “Land of ours”Over dead bodies What we claim as oursOnce belonged to someone elseBefore WE stole it Raped it for our ownThat which was in harmony Bent it to our will Then…rationalizedImprinted it into loreOur reality Though past… forgottenFacts conveniently misplacedDoes not change the truth We come from eitherImmigrant or Land RaiderThe rest… “The Losers” So, tread carefullyInalienable Rights….Don’t last forever Nothing is more powerful than WORDS. Nothing more dangerous, more abused or less understood. Once spoken or written… our control lost, never can they be withdrawn, no prison capable of holding, few capable of resisting. With a will of their own, guided by the essence of their creator, they infect one mind at a time. History is always written by the reaper, words becoming its gospel. We believe what we need, judge as we want, regardless of its cost on our soul... until it's too late. Without Love there is no hope… without hope… no future. Zoë and Rodin 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 23, 2019 Share Posted July 23, 2019 You're MY morning smile My attitude adjustment The spice of my day Always there for meCherishes her commitmentMy Army of ONE Why? Does she need me?NO… she NEEDS no one at allBut … WANTS her Peaches SusanLouisa, Lady_Andrea and Zoë 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted July 30, 2019 Share Posted July 30, 2019 My morning… is mineNo where to be until 10:00A breath of spare time For reminiscingFor anticipating tooMy first date… with YOU Just a day awayOur third anniversaryAnd… still INTO YOU Now reminding meOf our bumpy beginningsAlmost… “could have beens” So…. One for the VaultSharing with those peers who careAnd… posterity A story of USAnd those bumpy beginningsWritten in Haiku ***** Intoxicated...Hungry for a taste of YOUThat delicious mind Drunk on your storiesYour incorrigible postsTempting my taste buds Needing an Intro…Answered a Personal AdCarefully crafted Impetuous MEExpecting a quick reply…Shaded with silence Feeling rejected…/me sends anotherThis one more a “snip” Oh, THAT first slap stung…My West Coast signature waysMet with quick rebuke I’m not used to NOUsually get what i wantSo… i persist. If PM’s failed me…I will take to the forumTo find my way in Shadowing your postsFlirting with your songs and picsAssuming them mine… Looking for YOU… GREENA glimpse of you in WINTERGives me butterflies Then… something happenedI began to grow on YOUMy relentless ways? But… still i scared youMy “guarded” Wallflower GirlME… a hurricane I tugged n flirtedMy intentions obviousStill… YOU resisted Almost let YOU go…Did not want to be a pestBut could not do it So, I played my handAsking for yours in returnWent… Multiple Choice TBContinued… My breath of spare time… exhausted. No time left, work finally calls. Will have to conclude the inevitable, laterz… in time for its anniversary. Zoë and Rodin 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted August 3, 2019 Share Posted August 3, 2019 My TBContinued will have to wait… as will the PM’s I intended to answer. Such is my life, prisoner of the heart. Though it’s Friday night, my weekend awaits... should be giddy, was just this morning but sad news today hit the “new mom” in me really hard. Rocking my heart, stealing thoughts compelling me to write. What if she had been my daughter? What if I was the one grieving? Having to say goodbye… all the while silently trying to reconcile the would’ve, could’ve n what ifs. Littered with questions, self-doubt n guilt. Could I bear the weight of such loss? More importantly… could I forgive myself for being unable to help? Accept there is no fault or let it poison me? I really don’t know. Pretty privileged lifeThat’s what the “outsider” seesHow can i complain? That which they covet…Are my shackles, ball n chainLost in who i AM My reality…Everyone knows who i amYet no one knows me ** This news saddens meNot because of who she wasBut who she won’t be How can a person...Who seems to have every thingFeel empty inside? Depression... is realIt does not discriminateOr care WHO you are The scariest Monsters hide within… they can’t be seen, can’t be beat, only tamed with the help of others, every day. My heart aches for all of you. Not just the ones that make headlines... but the countless that suffer in silence. Katelyn Tarver - You Don't Know Lady_Andrea, Rodin and Zoë 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted August 6, 2019 Share Posted August 6, 2019 Nope, sorry… again. My TBContinued still on hold while I struggle to reconcile recent senseless acts of violence in our country, these last 3 hitting too close… one in both of my home states Cali n Texas, the most recent in Andrea’s. Closing in on our sanctuary’s; our towns, stores, homes… wondering when it will invade my American dream, turn it into a nightmare. When will I be on the NEWS? And what would it do to me... if it were more than just news. What if it touched my life as it did each of those in Gilroy, El Paso, Dayton… or the growing list around the world. Would it convert me from a creature of light into darkness? Could I resist? Could I forgive… if my child’s name was on the list of deceased? Could I be the example I want to set for her? I’m kinda struggling with that atm. Tried to avoid itTo bury my head in sandMake it go away But it refuses…Demanding understandingWhat is wrong with us? How did we get here?Where did we take the wrong path?What was our mistake? What drives a person…To kill people they don’t know?Without emotion. No act of passion…But calculated and plannedSome twisted mission Where were the parents…Teachers, counselors, neighbors?Who forgot to care? Who’s your Frankenstein?What drove you to the Dark side?Stole your compassion Hate… cannot cure hateOnly destroy innocenceCreate new Monsters When will we all learn…Without love and compassionWe have no future /me hopes my next post WILL return to regular broadcasting and pick up on my TBC... Zoë 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted August 11, 2019 Share Posted August 11, 2019 I wished a man deadA despicable creatureWho preyed on the young I wished him anguishFor all the dreams he tarnishedIn the name of fun I wished him abusedLeft scared, hurting and helplessJust like those he used But now that he’s dead…I don’t feel any betterHate does not cure hate Once again… reminded of my own hypocrisy. OK, next post WILL return to regular broadcasting and pick up on my TBC... There is only one way for me to rid myself of distraction n conflict... purge it from my heart. Release it wrapped in words. Zoë 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted August 27, 2019 Share Posted August 27, 2019 Some dates are never forgotten… August 27th one of them. The beginning of a journey, for me, into a world unknown. A life altering commitment between two strangers that are strangers no more. Some gifts shine with timeTheir glow grows from polishingUnlike most that fade Was three years ago…In the Dungeons of IcehouseOur journey began A playful PeachesOffering my submissionPlaying with your fire Breaking your own rulesYou gifted me your collarWith a stern warning… “It is yours to wear”“But ALL that it holds is mine”“Until taken off” Now three years laterYour hold stronger than everNow… I understand Lady_Andrea, Zoë and ☙𝔼𝕩❧ 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady_Andrea Posted August 27, 2019 Share Posted August 27, 2019 Happy Anniversary, my little love. Zoë and Kaitlyn1989 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted September 9, 2019 Share Posted September 9, 2019 Why place trust in eyes That are easily deceived Seeing what I want Why rely on ears Made for sound, not truth telling Hearing what I want Why not trust my heart? Let feelings replace senses Following instincts We all have a force... That can be felt by others When true to yourself I don’t need to see… Don’t need to hear or touch you To know I LOVE you ☙𝔼𝕩❧, Lady_Andrea, Zoë and 1 other 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted September 13, 2019 Share Posted September 13, 2019 Expectations… SUCK Sets me UP… to take me DOWN With a SUCKERPUNCH A bipolar heart Incapable of control Only knows to feel There are no reasons No time for explanations Living in… moment I know… I am Loved ALWAYS there for me… each day Why’s that not enough? Why do I want more? When did I become so spoiled? Expectations… SUCK. Zoë, SusanLouisa and ☙𝔼𝕩❧ 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaitlyn1989 Posted September 17, 2019 Share Posted September 17, 2019 My apologies to Melanie & ExHaran… for stepping on their creative and witty threads so quickly. I happen to enjoy visiting both. /me hopes ya meets our “new” Forum standards. But when my heart wants to be heard… I’m no longer in control. Yes…for the self-entitled, self-absorbed, narrow minded, judgmental peeps out there… I’m using standard forum font. Certainly don’t want to ruin your day, its obviously much more important than mine and you just can’t seem to keep your eyeballs outta my panties. Pffft , Hipocrites Continue your purge Ripping the heart from Forum Till it has no soul No place for Newbies No longer…sanctuary A place to meet friends Just cold empty walls A library of Silence Void of our laughter A community… Being deported, fractured Now just a Forum If you don’t need me… You can delete this SPAM too Don’t need YOU either. SusanLouisa, Zoë, MeiLing and 1 other 2 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
☙𝔼𝕩❧ Posted September 17, 2019 Share Posted September 17, 2019 No one will touch your poetry It seems(just my opinion) these forum games was deleted by some reason. Maybe to increase forum space or something. I didn`t see any answer, but there is no sense to delete diary. Keep your interesting poetry going and thank you. Vaughan_Rarius and Kaitlyn1989 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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