Yeah I've made a few party announcement threads in my almost 4 years here, but this is my first real one...
1) I got a little bit drunk
2) Things is RL are sorta meh
3) Things in 3dx are whatever
4) Other shit
So I log into 3dx and decide to check out the new rooms. I see a "Grape room". I go there. I lose my shit.
This is what bothers me. "It's just a game". Do people really think like this? Do people even think at ALL before they speak anymore? I thought that typing was a poor yet slightly effective filter between what people think and what people broadcast.
This isn't about me. This is about what this community is and apparently has always been since I can remember. People who know me know that I tend to find the rape rooms and I tend to be a pain about them. I don't get any pleasure interacting with the bottom feeders of society, and I'm sure as shit not gonna share my own life stories with the general population of this place, or the real world.
Please put yourself into this scenario... You've recently been to a party. You had too much to drink. You possibly had something else that clouded your judgement. You knew when you took this that it would have this effect on you. You're lonely. You're depressed. Someone shows interest in you. You think that this person will make you feel better about yourself. You realize that you've made a mistake. You want to leave. You get raped.
Is this funny? Is this a fantasy of yours? Is this something that you can see someone else taking lightly? Is this what you expected to find when you decided that the internet was the only place you felt safe anymore?
Sadly, you should have expected to see this. This is apparently the nature of the human race now.
Years go by. You are able to "cope" with your past now. You witness people taking things that once dictated the course of your entire life as if they're a joke, or a "game". You deal. You remember how it was before you could "cope", You wonder if there are others that are somewhere in limbo between having their dignity robbed, and "coping" with it. You decide that something needs to be said.
You say something that's probably combative. You degrade people taking rape lightly. You become petty. You feel yourself becoming someone you don't want to be.
And then you experience the true human spirit. "It's just a game" "It's fantasy" "If you don't like it, don't come here"
You ask yourself if you can pretend that there isn't 50 people in a rape room. You ask yourself if you see something that's terribly wrong, is it strength or weakness to turn your back to it? You ask yourself "WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO EVEN ASK MYSELF THIS???"
What is wrong with people when there is absolutely no compassion for someone who has been robbed of the very thing that they're expected to save for the one person that they truly love?
I am at a loss... I've been in SO many battles both here and in the "game" over the complete lack of sympathy for people who have been raped that I don't know what else to do. I am not a person that can turn her back.
Is there any hope at all for humanity? Why do people have to be so fucking heartless??? Does anyone at all see what I see?