Posted 01 August 2017 - 02:29 PM
So now back on track. After scumbag was gone I got fed up and decided to redo Carries profile. I added a beautiful quote that I still use to this day. Also I mentioned that I was a guy in real life and basically if someone didn't like it then just don't talk to me. I even mentioned my other avatar Deimos as being the real me. I was ready to see who could care for me regardles of my gender in real life. So I continued to open Carries and friends still came nothing changed. The guy I mentioned that I met at Saloon, we can refer to him as cowboy. Hope that's ok in here. Well he came to visit me and I cried on his shoulder about scumbag and then we hit it off. I even made sure he read my profile because what we were beginning was too good to be true. So a few days later I decided to surprise my cowboy and I created a new girl to be with him on Nvidia. He wasn't entirely comfortable with Carries profile and I understood that. So I told him to meet me on Love Island and that's when I brought Nvidia and how our love story began. Everyday with him was magical we danced and had an amazing magical time together. I was the happiest I have ever been in that place. But I didn't do what I was supposed and start a new life with him. I ran back to friends and even my ex and his wife telling them both how happy I was and wanted them to meet my cowboy. I didn't know it then but to this day I regret ever doing that it was the biggest mistake ever. Well he and I had an argument over me revealing Nvidia as Carrie and how a new life wasn't gonna work. So the next day I was just wandering around the old beach and I saw a guy sitting alone. Deep in my gut I knew my cowboy made a new avi and it was hurting me so I decided to make one myself PerfectStorm and went back to beach and sat a few people down from him. Opened a PM waiting for the little pencil to show up. Seems like so did he we both wrote each other at same time. We both played the characters like we were both new and strangers, that didn't last too long we both confessed who we were and to be honest it was fun. This was the new life we wanted where nobody knew us. We still used Nvidia and his main. He and I had a talk and well me being me I got scared. Told him why I was scared and I said because I am afraid you will meet a real girl and leave me just like my ex awhile back did. His word were "I will never leave you just don't tell anyone your a guy and you won't have nothing to worry about. Besides I don't meet too many females here. I'll always be with you and he said I want to marry you just have to see some things."Of course hearing all that I turned into a giddy schoolgirl. Mind you if anything sweet or important is said to me I always screenshot it for a memory also if someone denies what they said to me. So we bounced back and forth between avis. Nvidia and her cowboy got into a fight over a gift he had from another girl. Which hurt me after everything he told me. So I realized it was the end of us so like a fool I messaged her and told her she could have him. At this point he had me blocked from the fight and reason being because he was feeling like being with me makes him gay. Obviously someone was feeding him that information, which I know who now. So he winded up deleting his new guy he was gonna marry Storm with. A day later he unblocked and I was at beach again. Alone as Storm wandering. Then I saw at the far end a new avi with a bad name and I knew it was my baby, my cowboy. So I sat in the chair next to him. Not sure who messaged first but this time I didn't deny knowing him and well we made up and were happy again. Oh and we became friends with my ex and his wife, we went to see them a lot. Life was good and everyone was happy or so I thought. We had another fight and he blocked me. I deleted Deimos and Nvidia to be a bitch. But recreated Nvidia and we made up. He deleted his alt with Storm. So then when talked about making new lives together and just going away. He bought me a sub for my new name and he was going to make a new one too. We were going to share the same last name. BrookeJohnson was mine. So I had to go to bed early and like usually we always spent the night together. Woke up most of the time in eachothers arms. Sometimes we dc like this last time. So I dc and next morning logged on. Went to apologize for the dc and showed he deleted with no word. My whole world shattered and I cried and cried. My friends tried to calm me and help me but nothing was helping. I knew he had a new avi out there becuz you can't delete your only avi. So I went out trying to find him. At this point I was the one paranoid well not really paranoid just thought almost every new guy was him.