Many do not know me, especially when I have been here for years. I tend to keep my circle small. I believe everyone is beautiful and wonderful and at times even if they remain silent, full of things to say. Just sometimes have to find a way to make the silent become expressive. I will be going in for surgery soon. And it is unknown if I will survive it, I am hoping! This is a genuine thing, not some made up thought to garner some attention. I wanted to take a moment and while this might seem corny it entirely fits how I see others even those reading this.
This is a part from Valerie's letter from the movie 'V is for Vendetta'
But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may not meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you: I love you.
With all my heart.
I love you.
Some might find that false or too corny. It is however how I see others and the world around me. Its a wonderful place filled with many wonderful things and people. That not every moment should we shelter behind a screen, the outside world calls to us. By sunlight, the sounds of insects outside, a few birds chirping (as some are outside my window doing just now), the world itself is amazing. And I hope I am around longer than a few days (my surgery date) to explore this all with you. I would miss it if I am gone, though not much can I do as far as missing something if my life should fade. Thank you to those that have seen me more than as a quiet shadow and have gotten me to speak. I am not shy, I am not exploding with sexual urges, I sit in random rooms, sometimes off in places others may not see me too well, but I am there. Watching, enjoying, laughing, as you all experience and engage one another. The beauty of connection. At one point the corner of the old dance club right by the bar was for the longest my main spot. Had me kicking the beer they put in that place one year (lol), would just sit by the side of the beer. Yes I could have found a different place to sit, but my bottom claimed that corner for a time. Anyways forgive the above corny, and it is true I love you, I love all regardless, and there my heart follows. See you all soon if all goes well. If not I do hope those I have talked with, remember me. I would like nothing more than to have only happy memories fill ones head, and pleasant things from sweeter lips. I hope I have done my best in this life to see others, and for them to see me. Thank you for everything. And please always live your lives happily, never ever think you are alone, or unloved. You are always loved. And you are never alone. Compassion is a freely available part of who we are. Always give it without pause.